foreveraloneguy Posted July 2, 2015 Posted July 2, 2015 On the disability, talk to your Dr. and see if they agree that you would be qualified as disabled. You have to get at least one Dr. to sign off on it. I know this because we were trying to get my g/f on disability.
Blackness blackness is... Posted July 2, 2015 Posted July 2, 2015 The mod helped me keep my mind focused instead of thinking of things I should not have, especially since I was unemployed for much of the time I have been working on it. I used to work on cars as a hobby but my back ended that as well as severely limiting how long I can do physical activities outside. The anti depressants ended me being able to do things like paint miniatures or build models due to my hands shaking, while it has eased up I with the meds I take now I still have times that I can't even drink from a bottle using both hands or eat with utensils. Last year when my hands started going numb I wasn't sure what I was going to do, luckily that was correctable with surgery (2 ruptured discs in my neck). Mod making is one of the few hobbies I have that I can still do that I enjoy, I like the sense of creating things that it brings. My wife gives me a lot of emotional support and lets me do what I can (yes, she knows about the mod, I discuss it with her, too). Edit: If I didn't enjoy working on this mod I would have stopped long ago. ok. just stop making me worry about your well being. the subject is very serious. ..and makes me sad
Veladarius Posted July 2, 2015 Author Posted July 2, 2015 The mod helped me keep my mind focused instead of thinking of things I should not have, especially since I was unemployed for much of the time I have been working on it. I used to work on cars as a hobby but my back ended that as well as severely limiting how long I can do physical activities outside. The anti depressants ended me being able to do things like paint miniatures or build models due to my hands shaking, while it has eased up I with the meds I take now I still have times that I can't even drink from a bottle using both hands or eat with utensils. Last year when my hands started going numb I wasn't sure what I was going to do, luckily that was correctable with surgery (2 ruptured discs in my neck). Mod making is one of the few hobbies I have that I can still do that I enjoy, I like the sense of creating things that it brings. My wife gives me a lot of emotional support and lets me do what I can (yes, she knows about the mod, I discuss it with her, too). Edit: If I didn't enjoy working on this mod I would have stopped long ago. ok. just stop making me worry about your well being. the subject is very serious. ..and makes me sad I don't believe that I will get to that point again, especially since the main reason I decided not to was that I could not leave my wife like that. I came to a realization then that suicide is a very greedy thing as the only thing that concerns you is you. From my own experience I felt alone when I went through it all but that was only because I was distancing myself from others and built a flawed view that no one cared, it was far from the truth. One of the reasons that I talk about it is I hope someone going through the same thing sees it and decides they are not alone either.
noobsaleh Posted July 2, 2015 Posted July 2, 2015 Are there any harnesses with an open back? Have you considered making one?
Veladarius Posted July 2, 2015 Author Posted July 2, 2015 Are there any harnesses with an open back? No, unfortunately there is not.
lucen15 Posted July 2, 2015 Posted July 2, 2015 My depression was very serious a few years ago, I was to the point of suicide. Medications have helped but I am very sensitive to them (I am on meds #4 and #5) and anything that affects seratonin causes major problems for me (it gave me sleep apnia so severe I stopped breathing 45 times per hour and was suffering from sleep deprivation). My back pain is what triggered the depression, being told that the worst pain you have felt in your life may not go away is harsh, unfortunately the same thing is happening again as my treatments for my back are not working well any more. Currently there is nothing operable so surgery is not an option. Pain killers do little to help, most do nothing (Vicodin does nothing at all and Percocet just makes me a little fuzzy headed) so I am taking Morphine but at least it is partially effective. And to top everything off is Glaucoma (still very early stages) which complicates treatment of things, especially my back as the steroid shots I have been getting can raise the pressure in the eyes (primary cause of glaucoma). I am lucky in that I have my wife and some very good doctors and therapists to help. Arthritis and depression, i do not want to stir up any controversy im just throwing this out here though: http://www.leafscience.com/2014/02/11/study-confirms-marijuana-can-help-arthritis/ http://www.theweedblog.com/study-marijuana-effective-in-treating-depression/ depending on where you live it may or may not be legal, i dont personally know how it feels but many in my family go through depressions and both my sister and mother have arthritis so this actually brings feels to my heart, i just wanna help out in the only way i can think off what you do or dont do is up to you and not me. I do hope you get better and if what i posted can in any way help you it would make me very happy
MallaVelve Posted July 2, 2015 Posted July 2, 2015 Veladarius, wow, looks like back pain/issues and depression in not only my problem...I can relate. On a lighter note, I know people have mentioned this before but....could you make the walkway that EVENTUALLY covers the rocks on the East side of the shop part of the initial structure? NPCs are still getting stuck at that point. They want to go through the rocks instead of around them.
Veladarius Posted July 2, 2015 Author Posted July 2, 2015 My depression was very serious a few years ago, I was to the point of suicide. Medications have helped but I am very sensitive to them (I am on meds #4 and #5) and anything that affects seratonin causes major problems for me (it gave me sleep apnia so severe I stopped breathing 45 times per hour and was suffering from sleep deprivation). My back pain is what triggered the depression, being told that the worst pain you have felt in your life may not go away is harsh, unfortunately the same thing is happening again as my treatments for my back are not working well any more. Currently there is nothing operable so surgery is not an option. Pain killers do little to help, most do nothing (Vicodin does nothing at all and Percocet just makes me a little fuzzy headed) so I am taking Morphine but at least it is partially effective. And to top everything off is Glaucoma (still very early stages) which complicates treatment of things, especially my back as the steroid shots I have been getting can raise the pressure in the eyes (primary cause of glaucoma). I am lucky in that I have my wife and some very good doctors and therapists to help. Arthritis and depression, i do not want to stir up any controversy im just throwing this out here though: http://www.leafscience.com/2014/02/11/study-confirms-marijuana-can-help-arthritis/ http://www.theweedblog.com/study-marijuana-effective-in-treating-depression/ depending on where you live it may or may not be legal, i dont personally know how it feels but many in my family go through depressions and both my sister and mother have arthritis so this actually brings feels to my heart, i just wanna help out in the only way i can think off what you do or dont do is up to you and not me. I do hope you get better and if what i posted can in any way help you it would make me very happy I am very familiar with it, I have family and friends that use it (both medicinal and not) and even have a third reason to use it, I have glaucoma as well. My issue is that I don't like the way it makes me feel (or any other medications / alcohol for that matter) and is why the 30 Morphine pills I got after neck surgery to remove 2 herniated discs lasted me 10 months. When I asked my doctor for a refill of them back in June my doctor knew I was in a lot of pain, he knows I hate taking them. I saw my therapist today and he recommended I go ahead and file for disability. There are a lot of things I can't do any more like work on cars (I can rebuild an engine), build things (I can build some small furniture), paint fantasy miniatures (my hands shake due to meds), work on my computer for long periods of time (hands and back force me to take a lot of breaks) and my anxiety keeps me from dealing with people (I won't miss customer service work though). I will be seeing my doctor Monday about it was well. Edit: I was also a draftsman a long time ago before everything went to CAD (I learned AutoCAD back in 1988) and worked for a few large companies (I drew military jet engine parts on a drafting board, in ink). I couldn't freehand some of the stuff I did back then anymore either.
lucen15 Posted July 2, 2015 Posted July 2, 2015 My depression was very serious a few years ago, I was to the point of suicide. Medications have helped but I am very sensitive to them (I am on meds #4 and #5) and anything that affects seratonin causes major problems for me (it gave me sleep apnia so severe I stopped breathing 45 times per hour and was suffering from sleep deprivation). My back pain is what triggered the depression, being told that the worst pain you have felt in your life may not go away is harsh, unfortunately the same thing is happening again as my treatments for my back are not working well any more. Currently there is nothing operable so surgery is not an option. Pain killers do little to help, most do nothing (Vicodin does nothing at all and Percocet just makes me a little fuzzy headed) so I am taking Morphine but at least it is partially effective. And to top everything off is Glaucoma (still very early stages) which complicates treatment of things, especially my back as the steroid shots I have been getting can raise the pressure in the eyes (primary cause of glaucoma). I am lucky in that I have my wife and some very good doctors and therapists to help. Arthritis and depression, i do not want to stir up any controversy im just throwing this out here though: http://www.leafscience.com/2014/02/11/study-confirms-marijuana-can-help-arthritis/ http://www.theweedblog.com/study-marijuana-effective-in-treating-depression/ depending on where you live it may or may not be legal, i dont personally know how it feels but many in my family go through depressions and both my sister and mother have arthritis so this actually brings feels to my heart, i just wanna help out in the only way i can think off what you do or dont do is up to you and not me. I do hope you get better and if what i posted can in any way help you it would make me very happy I am very familiar with it, I have family and friends that use it (both medicinal and not) and even have a third reason to use it, I have glaucoma as well. My issue is that I don't like the way it makes me feel (or any other medications / alcohol for that matter) and is why the 30 Morphine pills I got after neck surgery to remove 2 herniated discs lasted me 10 months. When I asked my doctor for a refill of them back in June my doctor knew I was in a lot of pain, he knows I hate taking them. I saw my therapist today and he recommended I go ahead and file for disability. There are a lot of things I can't do any more like work on cars (I can rebuild an engine), build things (I can build some small furniture), paint fantasy miniatures (my hands shake due to meds), work on my computer for long periods of time (hands and back force me to take a lot of breaks) and my anxiety keeps me from dealing with people (I won't miss customer service work though). I will be seeing my doctor Monday about it was well. How do you ingest it, depending on how you do it, you can get a different type of high, smoking gives a quick short one, eating gives a light long one, but if you know family that does it you might know about it already. EDIT Then there is of course oil
Farmthat Posted July 3, 2015 Posted July 3, 2015 I saw my therapist today and he recommended I go ahead and file for disability. There are a lot of things I can't do any more like work on cars (I can rebuild an engine), build things (I can build some small furniture), paint fantasy miniatures (my hands shake due to meds), work on my computer for long periods of time (hands and back force me to take a lot of breaks) and my anxiety keeps me from dealing with people (I won't miss customer service work though). I will be seeing my doctor Monday about it was well. Edit: I was also a draftsman a long time ago before everything went to CAD (I learned AutoCAD back in 1988) and worked for a few large companies (I drew military jet engine parts on a drafting board, in ink). I couldn't freehand some of the stuff I did back then anymore either. Still, that's a pretty cool set of skills. Even if you're not up for doing a lot of your past hobbies and occupations today, at least the experience continues to influence what you can do. I'm a draftsman, by the way. The profession has moved on to 3D modeling now, but the fundamentals are still the same. (in my opinion, autocad was the dark ages of drafting, hand drafting was glorious, and 3D modeling is fun, but autocad is neither.) Anyway, I know that if I lost my ability to draft tomorrow, I would in some small part miss working, but my way of viewing the way things are put together is fundamentally improved, forever. I have become more analytical, and wary of sloppiness. I know that little inaccuracies left unfixed will snowball into complicated messes later on. This sort of experience can apply anywhere. So, modding/programming seems like a perfectly logical extension of the skills you have. After all, there's probably as many components to your mod as there are parts to a jet engine, and it's about as hard to make sure they all fit together and run smoothly.
Veladarius Posted July 3, 2015 Author Posted July 3, 2015 I saw my therapist today and he recommended I go ahead and file for disability. There are a lot of things I can't do any more like work on cars (I can rebuild an engine), build things (I can build some small furniture), paint fantasy miniatures (my hands shake due to meds), work on my computer for long periods of time (hands and back force me to take a lot of breaks) and my anxiety keeps me from dealing with people (I won't miss customer service work though). I will be seeing my doctor Monday about it was well. Edit: I was also a draftsman a long time ago before everything went to CAD (I learned AutoCAD back in 1988) and worked for a few large companies (I drew military jet engine parts on a drafting board, in ink). I couldn't freehand some of the stuff I did back then anymore either. Still, that's a pretty cool set of skills. Even if you're not up for doing a lot of your past hobbies and occupations today, at least the experience continues to influence what you can do. I'm a draftsman, by the way. The profession has moved on to 3D modeling now, but the fundamentals are still the same. (in my opinion, autocad was the dark ages of drafting, hand drafting was glorious, and 3D modeling is fun, but autocad is neither.) Anyway, I know that if I lost my ability to draft tomorrow, I would in some small part miss working, but my way of viewing the way things are put together is fundamentally improved, forever. I have become more analytical, and wary of sloppiness. I know that little inaccuracies left unfixed will snowball into complicated messes later on. This sort of experience can apply anywhere. So, modding/programming seems like a perfectly logical extension of the skills you have. After all, there's probably as many components to your mod as there are parts to a jet engine, and it's about as hard to make sure they all fit together and run smoothly. When I started with AutoCAD it wasn't even 3d, more like 2.5d (flat things with a thickness). I have done a bit of personal work in AutoCAD 2013 but never really got much past working with primitive 3d shapes. I think one of the best things as a draftsman was helping design something then see it built. I started out working for my dad's welding / machine shop (I can also weld and some minor metalworking) and got to design some custom versions of machines my dad made. Edit: As for doing things, I typically just jump in and do things. The first engine I rebuilt was from a 79 Toyota Celica, I put it in the garage, grabbed a Haynes manual and pulled it out and rebuilt it. It took about 2 weeks working on it after work but it started up first try. Edit2: And after all that I work in accounting researching and fixing discrepancies.
Farmthat Posted July 3, 2015 Posted July 3, 2015 When I started with AutoCAD it wasn't even 3d, more like 2.5d (flat things with a thickness). I have done a bit of personal work in AutoCAD 2013 but never really got much past working with primitive 3d shapes. I think one of the best things as a draftsman was helping design something then see it built. I started out working for my dad's welding / machine shop (I can also weld and some minor metalworking) and got to design some custom versions of machines my dad made. Edit: As for doing things, I typically just jump in and do things. The first engine I rebuilt was from a 79 Toyota Celica, I put it in the garage, grabbed a Haynes manual and pulled it out and rebuilt it. It took about 2 weeks working on it after work but it started up first try. Nice! As a kid, it was a bloodbath, for me. I'd take things apart (mostly broken electronics) under the pretense of "fixing" them, but I never had a manual... so if I even put them back together, they went back together with about 2/3 of the screws and never worked any better. A trial and error approach I can't recommend. The software we use is called Revit. It's specifically for architectural drafting, distantly related to "inventor" I think. We still have AutoCAD, it's sort of a necessity and a language everyone speaks, so to speak. Autodesk owns everything, of course.
MallaVelve Posted July 3, 2015 Posted July 3, 2015 Veladarius, wow, looks like back pain/issues and depression in not only my problem...I can relate. On a lighter note, I know people have mentioned this before but....could you make the walkway that EVENTUALLY covers the rocks on the East side of the shop part of the initial structure? NPCs are still getting stuck at that point. They want to go through the rocks instead of around them.
Veladarius Posted July 3, 2015 Author Posted July 3, 2015 Veladarius, wow, looks like back pain/issues and depression in not only my problem...I can relate. On a lighter note, I know people have mentioned this before but....could you make the walkway that EVENTUALLY covers the rocks on the East side of the shop part of the initial structure? NPCs are still getting stuck at that point. They want to go through the rocks instead of around them. I can do that.
MallaVelve Posted July 3, 2015 Posted July 3, 2015 Veladarius, wow, looks like back pain/issues and depression in not only my problem...I can relate. On a lighter note, I know people have mentioned this before but....could you make the walkway that EVENTUALLY covers the rocks on the East side of the shop part of the initial structure? NPCs are still getting stuck at that point. They want to go through the rocks instead of around them. I can do that. Thank you thank you thank you!!!! Your awsome!
Veladarius Posted July 3, 2015 Author Posted July 3, 2015 Veladarius, wow, looks like back pain/issues and depression in not only my problem...I can relate. On a lighter note, I know people have mentioned this before but....could you make the walkway that EVENTUALLY covers the rocks on the East side of the shop part of the initial structure? NPCs are still getting stuck at that point. They want to go through the rocks instead of around them. I can do that. Thank you thank you thank you!!!! Your awsome! Until then if it causes you issues do this in the console: prid xx08C2EE enable That will enable the walkway early.
Nergui Posted July 4, 2015 Posted July 4, 2015 I have a problem. Not technical, storyline related. Is there any way to give Erani back? I don't like followers and I don't have a suitable home to house her.
Veladarius Posted July 4, 2015 Author Posted July 4, 2015 I have a problem. Not technical, storyline related. Is there any way to give Erani back? I don't like followers and I don't have a suitable home to house her. Her markers are automatically set for her to stay in the Manor house, tell her to start her work and she will stay there.
Nergui Posted July 4, 2015 Posted July 4, 2015 Her markers are automatically set for her to stay in the Manor house, tell her to start her work and she will stay there. Great, thank-you.
MallaVelve Posted July 4, 2015 Posted July 4, 2015 Veladarius, wow, looks like back pain/issues and depression in not only my problem...I can relate. On a lighter note, I know people have mentioned this before but....could you make the walkway that EVENTUALLY covers the rocks on the East side of the shop part of the initial structure? NPCs are still getting stuck at that point. They want to go through the rocks instead of around them. I can do that. Thank you thank you thank you!!!! Your awsome! Until then if it causes you issues do this in the console: prid xx08C2EE enable That will enable the walkway early. This works but there are 3 Tree Logs blocking the stairs. So at the moment it doesn't help. i tried clicking on them but disable is not working for them or I can't seem to click on the right spot,.
Veladarius Posted July 7, 2015 Author Posted July 7, 2015 An added feature to v4: Those that wish to remain chaste and pure (females only) the Master will, when detected, offer to help the player stay that way until they are married. What this adds: The Protector Plus devices - removable only by the designated person (Master to start, spouse when brought in) - The devices are: belt, bra, collar (posture and padded), arm and leg cuffs - no plugs will be used - Master will only offer the belt, bra and padded collar, other items may be put on by your spouse. - Devices are custom fitted and will NOT have the penalties to skills with them. - You can choose the finish and belt style and they may be changed at any time. Relief of sexual desires is possible by requesting time to do so from the designated person. - If the Master she will let the player do this themselves or may offer the assistance of a slave - It your spouse they may agree and have sex with you or, if they don't want sex then, bind you for a little while until they are ready This will examine your character when equipping a shop device and trigger if you are a virgin (or as close as I can detect), if you are not one then it shuts it down (for now). Note: This will be very intrusive on the game and will be inactive as a default, once any of these items are put on you they will only be removed permanently by your spouse (maybe). Yes, this will have spouse interaction and will require setting up some markers in the same fashion as Erani (you will have to mark locations for activities with your spouse). Spouse interaction may be a bit sparse to start with but it will be expanded. I will be setting things up so these can be used on you by your spouse even if you are not a virgin. Who knows, they may put them on you when you return from home some time, especially if they have been neglected.
aqqh Posted July 7, 2015 Posted July 7, 2015 An added feature to v4: Those that wish to remain chaste and pure (females only) the Master will, when detected, offer to help the player stay that way until they are married. Wouldn't that "conflict" with expansion#2 quest?
Veladarius Posted July 7, 2015 Author Posted July 7, 2015 An added feature to v4: Those that wish to remain chaste and pure (females only) the Master will, when detected, offer to help the player stay that way until they are married. Wouldn't that "conflict" with expansion#2 quest? Yes, it will conflict with that and a number of other things in CD not to mention a number of other mods. The Expansion quests are going to be disconnected from the expansion itself and be stand alone quests. Besides, the Master would not send their "cute little virgin" someplace like that. I am currently playing a character with that style of play, she is level 12 and has a Protector belt on 99% of the time so far.
aqqh Posted July 7, 2015 Posted July 7, 2015 such character could still be able to play that you would just have to make alternative sexlab scenes there - guess that would be heck of a lot of oral and other hand jobs tho i dont think there are any 3-some just-oral anims. for Alius some humiliation scene would be needed for example. The rest can go pretty much the same. Guess there could always be some different path there. Maybe even dominant one? Who said "cute little virgin" has to be submissive?
awkwardesert926 Posted July 8, 2015 Posted July 8, 2015 Hello, loving this mod and all it currently offers! Though I'm having a small crashing problem during the 'Another Task for Master' problem. Everything goes fine up until the final night where Elenwen talks and then has sex with you several times. The first sex scene goes correctly, but after that and before the next sex scene begins, the game crashes and even has the message 'Start Elenwen sex.' at the top-left of the screen. It clearly must be SexLab issues, but I don't mind skipping this part to the point where I just return to Master back at Captured Dreams to finish it. I'm not experienced at knowing what to type in the console to make the quest advance, so what am I supposed to type in?
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