Lyman the Lunatic

Some sort of depression, feels like something's terrible is gonna happen. Also kinda annoyed with a girl who left me while I am sick & bedridden, she uses her religion as an excuse. (it's that religion that has a lot of silly rules & doesn't eat pork, the same 1 that western media loves to put on the pedestal for some reason). I just don't get it, even a user here brought up a quote how this supposed religion is so liberal, my hands-on experience is the complete opposite.

Hmm... I did played around with Artheart, Muah & GirlfriendGPT. Hmm... I like Artheart when it's not broken, though... But then, Artheart can't really play an evil person.

Mine works just fine. Is it a 3rd party software conflict?

I forgot to mention a bug. Even if I did not enable skill loss, my char lost the skills anyway (or at least, gets a pop up saying she lost her skills).

I know you don't care for my weird skeleton issue update. I'll post it here in case someone has the same problem & might stumble on this comment. Just a quick recap on my situation. I've been away for months. I came back, MO2 won't load my mod in the game. I made a new instance, and the breast, belly & butt skeletons are spiky broken. I tried to shuffle the animations around & Billy ones are still broken. Everything was up to date at the time I reported the issue. So today, I decided to just reinstall the XPMSE. And just like that, the skeletons are fixed now... I'll never understand how this stupid game works...

1 thing still baffled me, where in the lore does it confirmed circumcision? I understand it is an exclusively Abrahamic thing. And I don't see anyone in Tamriel being very Abrahamic, maybe the Redguards, but that's debatable.

Depression is clawing at the walls of my mind. My injuries kept me bedridden, I have grown bored & tired of seeing the 4 corners of my room. I have to fight the pain just to walk, there are food but uncooked, I have to prepare them so I can eat. I need to eat because I need to take my meds. The stupid meds makes me fall asleep. I will wake up again when the sun is down. I don't feellike sleeping, there's nothing to do. The kind of games I want to play doesn't exist anymore. Stupid gaming trend of today makes sure they die, or the des always have the killswitch. I am bored, I'm in pain & I have to fight my depression. For some stupid reason, I keep missing a girl who doesn't want me anymore.

Congratulations, this will be the 1st time I use a meme to reply a post. Okay, okay, I'm sorry, humour is dead on the internet & kids can't tell the difference. I read half way & got bored because you think this is a journal blog, you could trim them down more. 1st up, welcome to the Skyrim modding community 2nd of, welcome to Loverslab. If you are an absolute newbie, I recommend you to leave. Not because we hate you, LL mods just requires you to put more efforts into installing them, and that can make your skyim gaming experience too frustrating that it needs to. Get back to fiddling around with the basic mods (hair, armour, weapons) & get used to how MO2 works. Then come back here. You'll love your life more that way. From what I gathered, you weren't ready with all the work you need to install the mods. I don't really blame you, you did said those silly youtubers lied to you. But I don't think they intend to lie, or everything they told you is a lie. Bethesda is a terrible game company & CK is an archaic engine, things breaks all the time (even when you did everything absolutely right). Which is why I recommend you to leave here for now, play around with simpler mods & comes back later. You just need to get used to how broken & unpredictable nature of Skyrim & mod managing 1st. There's a reason why some of us says "mod it till it breaks" (and sometimes, the game breaks itself). I never trust those mod packs, so my advice is for everyone to install the mods they like, if you want to download a pack, just install them independently. Because if something breaks, it's easier to fix that way. Just like you described yourself, at 1st things looks fine, then it all starts to break, and what did you do? You removed the entire pack. Doesn't that makes you feel discouraged or depressed at all? i imagine you'll feel burn out at least. I want you to remember something, most game companies hates mods, they don't want their customers to change things in the game. Modding those games are harder or even impossible. Skyrim is the exception to the rule. My advice? Disable those modlists, download some basic stuff like armour, weapon or hair mod, spend time making your character looks the best you possibly can. Play around in skyrim. Fool around with console commands a little. Take a break form the modlist burn out. Go enjoy life, come back here & tackle that monstrous modlist again. Good? Good!

I love this mod, seeing my character got raped the levels out of her has always been something I want to see. If there is 1 thing that could be considered a "problem" to me, is that I hope there's a way to disable to notification pop up because it disrupts my viewing pleasure. Other than that, this mod is awesome.

Is SD considered "finished"? I haven't update to this version yet because MO2 is being super retarded & broke animations, I just want to fix them properly. Anyways, I'm here because I have some question/suggestion. Is it possible to change the word "Owner" from the MCM? Sometimes I feel the dialogue lacks the oppressiveness, at least master/mistress has that going for it. I know you want to keep it neutral because it's easier for everyone, but I always find it dry. At least if it's customizable, that would also achieve the same solution. Just a though.

Nothing much, just excited to find out that Climates of Tamriel dark interior option makes the atmosphere looks even more bleak & depressing for my character's predicament. I just love seeing her in terrible situations. I wish there are more mods to make her life worse. Now you see why you need to go to a mages guild to learn magic?

I don't know should I be happy or sad. I know the American autists will woke guard this game, so I just play the free mobile game instead. What I want is basically for the WB game to be more like the mobile game. Facial overhauls (I hate how these Americans thinks making your fictional character ugly is a good thing, it's so insulting), more costumes, more magic, interactible furniture, more areas (preferably personal for stuff like planting, or just decoration in general), dorm customization. I'll even welcome a mod that increases the proportion of white NPCs just so I'll feel like I live in a part of the world where the native population is dominantly white. But if I remember vaguely, WB games aren't so mod friendly, right?

Well, the classic Kamen Rider fans would agree, Tackle deserved better. The 1st female Kamen rider, she's kind & brave & she died to protect her friend, and not even officially recognized as a Kamen Rider. But some random dude with 1 arm with half the screen time from an older series is recognized as a Kamen Rider? But apparently, shewasn't recognized because the actress didn't wanted the character to be recognnized as 1. And the character's death has to do with the fact the actress was sick IRL or something? Whatever the truth may be, you're 1 of the best, Tackle.

I will preface to my opening statement that I don't like RPGs in general. However, I notice that in more modern "RPG" games, you no longer need to pay attention to the characters anymore. There is no reason to be invested, you can just press skip & wait for the BIG BOLD TEXT TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO!!! We can just play a hack & slash side scroller if you're just playing the game for the combat. Metroidvania or Roguelike also introduce the skill tree & inventory. You'll get more fun & no need to wait for the cutscene to be over. At least in the old game, I can get why people play RPGs, you like the characters, you like the story, you want to see how it ends. Now, you're just getting yourself through the combat, it's a waste of time. You have no influence on the plot, some games even make your NPC friend talking & doing all the decisions for you. You're not the main character, you're just the courier or the errand boy/girl. You can just get a real job instead, because you'll get paid for your time. And I don't understand why people who play videogames feel the need to defend the games even if they are bad, either. That's not love, that's abuse. I am ditching on the modern trend of videogames, not the RPG genre. And if anyone who thins that way, I wonder if they even love RPGs in general. I don't even like RPGs, but I used to be able to understand why people like some of the old games. But games these days? I just think most of the "fanboys" are just the developers or some schmo paid by the publishers to defend the games from criticism.

Your point being? The 2nd line gave me an impression you got offended? How so? We're talking about an upcoming RPG game, I don't see why an old RPG on a computer has to do with anything. I see that you have to use a translator, maybe it mistranslated something?