Skyrim is calling me back, I can hear its voice, the drums of the intro music slowly playing for me. I promised to let this game go, when my old computer broke and I lost all of my data it was too sad for me to go back and make everything again. I spent years on it after all. It's not about the game though, it's about its protagonist.
I have this idea cursing my mind with its many applications since I was younger. Isn't our ego not just part of ourselves but a son we create, grow and manipulate? We are like a god to our ego and it is like a god for us: everything perfect is placed inside of it, it's the only place to look if you want perfection.
That's what inspired me to create a character that followed me through every game I played: Dungeons and Dragons, Aion, Archeage, Tera, Black Desert, Morrowind, Skyrim, it changes in appearence sometimes but its very soul remain unchanged.
I have to say I loved the character creations in BD and it was nearly perfect to create my character but Skyrim has this... fredomness that really is like dna to this particular character. I took everything I consider perfection in a female body and combined everything, she shares a few traits with her many counterparts: Black short hair and gray eyes.
Like I mentioned I already created Ego in Skyrim, in fact I can call myself a veteran of this game but I can still hear its voice calling me back and I can't stop it. I'm going to create Ego again, even if different, maybe uglier but not with less love in the process of creation. I'll throw months in this but I'll never do the same mistake again, this time Ego will be released as a follower and live forever in the ether.