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I'm sorry everyone for coming here and being a drama queen for so long. Well I aim to do better after this. Love being a part of this community, but have been so obsessed with it and that little like button. Life had me down, had no job and just kept drowning. Even almost took my life. Things just never seemed to get better and I just drank and drank over it.


Made a complete ass of myself to you guys and to my loved ones in RL. Lost all the respect I used to have across the board being that way.


Welp that's my fault. Guys I didn't even respect myself. So couldn't really give it back. Great news though. Things are looking up. Got a job recently I love and can be supportive to my woman again. :)


I feel appreciated and respected again. I know there's a ton of people here that care about me both as a modder and a friend. Still here for that reason and want to turn over a new leaf and regain yalls trust and respect. Especially Ark, Pixie-K and Omega and Nightwynd. There's a ton more fans of my youtube/daily stuff that helped as well.


Welp I am in yalls debt. Love you guys. All of ya. :) Along with the support from my fam and yall I see reasons to stop drowning in self pity and be my old self again.


I do have a bit of bad news about me modding though. Work and trying to figure out some moving stuff is my main focus atm so I'll post stuff I can make on my mobile. Best I can do till I get to where I can get some pc time.


Hope everyone understands and can forgive me for who I was.


Got a big leaf to turn and I know it's going to take more than this post. I understand. Just know I'm trying for yall not just me anymore. :)


Thank you. All of you.

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Have no worries, I'm sure that people from this community will understand your situation and no one will have hard feelings. We all have "black holes" in our life and act different then we are in real. Thank you for sharing your feelings. It is not easy, I know. I respect your courage. :)

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You really don't know me much but I have read many of your articles and was part of the PM's with Ark on that project. I am glad you are at a better place now. Keep on working to make yourself better. It is difficult and we all have been there at one time or another.


A piece of advice if you want it... take care of your woman first, home, job, and then and only then when all is nice and set.. mod some goodies for us. :). Try to keep your life more simple and direct and at least in my personal experience it makes a difference in the long run.


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Guest Ragna_Rok


I never noticed until I focused
On everything you did, you said
You lit the fuse inside my head

Thank you for reminding me of why I'm sick inside
Thank you for the venom, did you think it would paralyze?
These scars I scratch, I tear are there under my skin
Where you've always been
Thank you for reminding me to sin with a grin!!



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Guest Ragna_Rok

no worries Kaputzki, i have a certain reputation even amongst the heavyweights.... im pretty much a maniac on my special field of work, its nice if real artists / masters like kettlewitch recognize this.


its the glamour of working on a niche-field... youre small, and certain modders waste your ass in dls, likes, comments and so on... but, when it comes to your special field of work, you kick pretty much any ass around. i can live with that.. when it comes to brutal-as-fuck-orc-stuff, theres no way around me, since i game as orc-chars since morrowind thats pretty much fine for me :)


stay true to yourself, folks :)

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