FalloutKitten Posted June 11, 2022 Author Posted June 11, 2022 2 hours ago, Nevadathehighelf said: How come you dint post much? these feet give me a boner Lack of self motivation, self confidence, slow internet. Most of my focus is on some game project usually. 1
Nevadathehighelf Posted June 11, 2022 Posted June 11, 2022 Quote Lack of self motivation, self confidence, slow internet. Most of my focus is on some game project usually. Awww...Are you alright? I know there's a lot going on in the world right not, anything you'd like to talk about? What game project, you're a game dev? 1
FalloutKitten Posted June 12, 2022 Author Posted June 12, 2022 1 hour ago, Nevadathehighelf said: Awww...Are you alright? I know there's a lot going on in the world right not, anything you'd like to talk about? What game project, you're a game dev? Yeah, I'm ok. I've been told that I have mild depression but I don't feel like things are all that bad. For whatever reason I just don't feel like doing anything. As for the project, yes I am a game dev on my spare time. 1
Nevadathehighelf Posted June 12, 2022 Posted June 12, 2022 Quote mild depression You too, huh? Well, it might have something to do with the pandemic. I've had chronic depression, where I was at a point where I had the tie around my neck (because none of Steven Spielgberg's aids wanted to hear about my scifi novel I worked so hard on), but didnt have the balls to jump way back in late 2019. I had to do a lot of praying, and eventually things got better. You name it I tried it to cure my depression, but keeping the faith, and a lot of prayer hotlines and prayer requests eventually helped me. 2021 was even worse than 2019, and I lost two of my favorite uncles, which still make me cry to this day (they didnt even die from covid but other circumstances) That, and the combination of me being unable to find work, despite me graduating with my bachelor's for IT in 2020, being single and not ablt to find a girlfriend, and being an artist/book author that cant get anybody to buy my art or writing hurt me greatly, but I'll be honest with you, I found out that none of those things matter, so long as I'm alive, that's more that can be said about my uncles, and the other people who died from covid. I found out what's most important, (lol and in regards to relationships, I found that I'd rather not have nobody, than have somebody that would make things worse) and in regards to the entertainment industry, I just take a look at how the movie industry is heading, and see how I'm not missing much. Look at how empty those movie parking lots are, they have big wigs keeping the movie theaters open yeah sure...But at what costs? All in all, I think prayer helps greatly, and hopefully this message helps you as well 1
FalloutKitten Posted June 13, 2022 Author Posted June 13, 2022 20 hours ago, Nevadathehighelf said: You too, huh? Well, it might have something to do with the pandemic. I've had chronic depression, where I was at a point where I had the tie around my neck (because none of Steven Spielgberg's aids wanted to hear about my scifi novel I worked so hard on), but didnt have the balls to jump way back in late 2019. I had to do a lot of praying, and eventually things got better. You name it I tried it to cure my depression, but keeping the faith, and a lot of prayer hotlines and prayer requests eventually helped me. 2021 was even worse than 2019, and I lost two of my favorite uncles, which still make me cry to this day (they didnt even die from covid but other circumstances) That, and the combination of me being unable to find work, despite me graduating with my bachelor's for IT in 2020, being single and not ablt to find a girlfriend, and being an artist/book author that cant get anybody to buy my art or writing hurt me greatly, but I'll be honest with you, I found out that none of those things matter, so long as I'm alive, that's more that can be said about my uncles, and the other people who died from covid. I found out what's most important, (lol and in regards to relationships, I found that I'd rather not have nobody, than have somebody that would make things worse) and in regards to the entertainment industry, I just take a look at how the movie industry is heading, and see how I'm not missing much. Look at how empty those movie parking lots are, they have big wigs keeping the movie theaters open yeah sure...But at what costs? All in all, I think prayer helps greatly, and hopefully this message helps you as well Those are encouraging words, and thank you. My problem is primarily that I'm not doing anything at all. No traction in my life what so ever. I applied to something yesterday, I'm thinking that will get me back on my feet again. I also have a daughter to take care of who will be moving back in with me in a week. Lots to do. 1
FalloutKitten Posted June 13, 2022 Author Posted June 13, 2022 Heres some sims 4 shots I took, please excuse the solid skirt. Spoiler 2
Nevadathehighelf Posted June 13, 2022 Posted June 13, 2022 (edited) 14 hours ago, FalloutKitten said: Those are encouraging words, and thank you. My problem is primarily that I'm not doing anything at all. No traction in my life what so ever. I applied to something yesterday, I'm thinking that will get me back on my feet again. I also have a daughter to take care of who will be moving back in with me in a week. Lots to do. Oh yeah! I got that issue too I have been out of work since late 2019. That's even after I graduated with my bachelor's of science in IT. I cant even afford to live in an apartment. I wouldnt be able to take care of kids, even if I had any. I blame Congress, for failing to help out the youth, and people just coming out of college. It's one big shitshow, and honestly not sure what to do. The good news is with just 84 cent in my bank account, I wont be paying colleges anything They can send IRS all they want, they aint getting shit ? I have good parents that let me stay with them forever no problem, and maybe one day companies will grow a heart and start hiring, before I have to go sell some drugs like Breaking Bad. In regards to not making any traction, I too am not making any traction. I wanted to be famous with my book Chronologue being in the movie theaters with sequels after sequels...But I cant even get people to consistently read my writing blog. I'm stuck at my mom and dad's house and cant make anything work, even finding work, and it makes me feel worthless. I feel like God abandoned me, like He got me all the way up to this point, just to let me rot here, and to be honest sadly I just dont have any answers on what to do. But one thing I can say: I'm still alive. That's more that can be said for my two uncles, and millions of others who died from Covid. Just know that it's not just you, it's spreading around. I know several people who also are struggling as well, even Deathbykitty over on the nexus. You name them, they're going through something right now as we speak. Hopefully things will get better soon, eh? Hopefully all of what I said helps? Edited June 13, 2022 by Nevadathehighelf 1
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FalloutKitten Posted July 14, 2022 Author Posted July 14, 2022 41 minutes ago, Nevadathehighelf said: Sorry for any repeats, ? You've shared so many good ones, its hard to tell there are any repeats. 1
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