I felt so worst.

[Triratna]

Man, i felt so worst sometimes.. Being bipolar is extremely painful.

 

I'm done with the therapy, felt better and able to see things more clearly. I've tarnished my life reputations since birth and tires to redeeming my past as madman. In real life, i hurt so many people now i feel extremely bad about them and i hold onto bad memories, guilt and shame for history of physical, sexual or emotional abuse I did years ago.

 

I have poor self image, dislike myselves and are very hypersensitive to rejection. Being a changed man takes lot to prove.

 

Sorry, for posting an EMO rants. I could always use advices.

[Guest Lady Luck]

i got how you feel dude, my boyfriend is bipolar i ignore that when it happens its friggin annoying and affecting relationship sometimes just do like this when bipolar comes i always seen him playing really violent game that helped him kill that anger..

[gregathit]

Try not to focus on "proving" things to people. That is a no win road. While I am not bi-polar, I did act like an ass when I was younger. I finally wised up and realized that I was being an ass and determined to change my behavior for "me". Not because I wanted to prove anything to anyone, but rather because don't like others who behaved like I did and I didn't wish to be part of that crowd any longer.

 

Also, you can't change the past, all you can do is learn from it and strive to be better in the present and future.

 

Focus on being a decent person for yourself. You will succeed some days and utterly fail on others. Don't get down on the days you fail as that is just one little battle in a massive war. Just because you loose a battle here or there is no reason to think you will loose the war! Never stop fighting!!!!

 

Now of course being bi-polar makes this whole deal worse and since I don't have it, I can't offer you anything other than the above advice. I wish you the best and hope you can find a solution that works for you.

 

Cheers,

Greg

[Triratna]

Many Thanks Greg. It's nice to hear that.

 

@Domgar.

Violent game doesn't do any good, it'll worsen up the mood after several hours of it. The reality then quickly slaps back and encourage self harm or self insults when boredom kicks in.

 

Game, well it simulate everything we can't do in the real life. Bad fantasies, Mind killers like any long term false product advertising we seen on TV these days. The branding goes into our habit and life. Sometimes, i DO need to stop from modding and focus on new and more important things.

[thesapien]

I'm half serious, have you tried making a game out of your bipolar disorder?

 

Being bipolar means your mood will swing without external stimulus so that you'll go from being high to being down and back again without anything substantial really changing or being the external cause. We're all like this, actually. I can have a bad day right after a good day even though nothing really changed from one day to the next. Yet we reserve the label of bipolar for those of us who do this to a greater degree.

 

It's like the difference between someone just going through puberty who gets an erection at the worst possible moments as compared to someone older who has learned more control over their sexual emotions. For whatever complicated reasons, you have less self control, self determination when it comes to your emotional state, like you're more wild, untamed.

 

Gaming, play, practice, etc. are what we do when we want to get better at something. Do you ever practice putting yourself into a state of mind? Ever taken acting lessons? Do any meditation?

 

Many people are put off by the idea of using discipline over their own emotions or trying to consciously control how their moods flow. It looks like mere pretending or less real. But what is more real about wild emotions that don't seem linked to the world anyways? Using acting skills to practice can help you become more of an activator in your life, acting for becoming, as opposed to passively being tossed around by the tides.

[Guest GingerTom]

I also am not bi-polar but I learned a lot from my ex-wife when she told me that when I was in a 'mood' she just ignored me until it went away.

 

Try and find yourself someone (if you're interested in doing that) with the same attitude as my ex--don't try to hide your problem from them. (Of course on your good times you have to be especially good to her/him.)

 

And, oh yes, don't live in the past--it's not there anymore. You can never go 'home' again.

[Triratna]

@sapien.

I'm done with my therapy. It's more to spiritual and motivational commitment.

 

Being nuts for more than 25 years and now tries to fix the personal & interpersonal damages, it wasn't easy.

 

Not to mention with mood turbulence in between, it's one helluva life.

[thesapien]

Better late than never, eh? Well unless it's too late.

 

Yeah, I had a bit of a mid life crisis a couple of years ago. Thing is, I see myself as lucky. The smack down in life was something I really needed. Sometimes you need to be falling in order to learn to fly.

[ElvenScoundrel]

I'm not bipolar, but I'm highly emotional and prone to sudden bursts of emotional outburst when it wells up, but I have my ways of keeping it in check. This all makes me sound like a Vulcan, funky enough.

 

One of 'em is I listen to a shitton of Ambient music, like the works of Steve Roach and Brian Eno, with Rainy Mood in the background. It relaxes me to a half-asleep state, and clears my mind really well.

 

Therapy works for some, but not all. IMO it's up to you to find the most effective way of dealing with your moods, or rather, the bad side of 'em.

[Triratna]

Well, life kinda sucks guys.

 

Let's get used to it.

 

And smile.

[Guest flingingfeces]

Staying positive even when you can't see anything positive or feel it around you. If you sometimes feel like you can't think what you can. People, places and things. Change them if they change you into something you don't like.

 

Waking up every morning like the world is new and you're lucky to be here helps. Also do things for others. It takes your mind off of your worries and makes you a better person doing it. Just don't over do it lol

 

Not bipolar, but these are all things I'm doing to keep from falling in the depressed drunken hole I crawled out of a couple of years ago. Hope it helps.

[Nonsense667]

Well' date=' life kinda sucks guys.

 

Let's get used to it.

 

And smile.

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That's pretty much my exact interpretation of my favorite song.

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Or as I like to put it: life sucks, but enjoy it anyway, and have fun.

 

Which in the end, turns life into something enjoyable and wonderful.