Triratna Posted June 7, 2012 Posted June 7, 2012 If you don't know what i'm talking about. Please don't join the crowd, Do play Shivering Isle instead. Trust me, It's very the lasting you want and it's real and it's not funny. I just realize about my conditions on my last birthday and now committed to fight it. But it's all too bit late to go back time and fix all the blackout freak i made in the past (*sigh). What a birthday present,eh? My life suddenly turns into a novel and this stick for a lifetime. In my case, it's a genetic legacy. Self Awareness of Schizophrenic Bipolar has less suicidal rate than those who aren't aware of their condition. More humble nature to public perspective and opinions, but it still a torture all the same. You're not alone. So let's share hint, tips and advices among ourselves. ONE RULE: If anyone advice *RESET*, i'll remove this thread on a heartbeat.
AkiraKogami Posted June 7, 2012 Posted June 7, 2012 If you don't know what i'm talking about. Please don't join the crowd' date=' Do play Shivering Isle instead. Trust me, It's very the lasting you want and it's real and it's not funny. I just realize about my conditions on my last birthday and now committed to fight it. But it's all too bit late to go back time and fix all the blackout freak i made in the past (*sigh). What a birthday present,eh? My life suddenly turns into a novel and this stick for a lifetime. In my case, it's a genetic legacy. Self Awareness of Schizophrenic Bipolar has less suicidal rate than those who aren't aware of their condition. More humble nature to public perspective and opinions, but it still a torture all the same. You're not alone. So let's share hint, tips and advices among ourselves. ONE RULE: If anyone advice [i']*RESET*[/i], i'll remove this thread on a heartbeat. I too have bipolar depressive. I understand it can be very difficult at times to live with. Personally though, I have more trouble with my schizophrenia. All I can say is have hope and don't give in. Even if it can be extremely appealing at times. I've had two suicide attempts and nearly succeeded once. So, yeah. *hug*
Guest Deliria Posted June 8, 2012 Posted June 8, 2012 I have cyclothymia, a form of bipolar. I've been on a psych ward for treatment before, and it's not pretty. The best tips I can think of at this moment is stick to a good healthy diet plan, have a crisis plan your support network/friends/family can use incase of a particular bad episode, and if you're lucky enough to find meds that work well for you, stick with em.
Triratna Posted June 8, 2012 Author Posted June 8, 2012 I don't have any anti depressant meds so far. Even if i do. It's the Old "Fishermen Friends". As for healthy diet. I goes very carefully on salt and caffeine intake and no alcohol, And stick to the fish meal and shun cheese and beef. After i learned about my condition it explain every strange extreme mental tripping behavior that i got. Man, if only i realized this sooner. Most us just didn't realized it until we've grown up. Here in south east asia, psychological is a rare topic. Most people shun madmen and use common knowledge to deal with them. But that's the past. We can't forgive past - We can't forget past, the best thing to do is moving forward and leave it behind. --- Some tip to cope with suicidal & Depressive episode. Be a humble person. A humble person cannot be humiliated. Nor humiliated further by other individuals and their demon. It's hard but not impossible. **humility comes before honor** **Pride Comes before downfall** .
xartom Posted June 9, 2012 Posted June 9, 2012 Another cyclothemic here. I'd add is talk to family about it and problems from it. Seems simple, but they can be understanding or at least facing the same problems. Venting is helpful and healthy imo. Good nights (or days) sleep is also super helpful and if you can don't compromise it.
Guest †Foggy♥Sugar† Posted June 9, 2012 Posted June 9, 2012 Good nights (or days) sleep is also super helpful and if you can don't compromise it. This is extremely true and easily over looked although I have anxiety that will keep me up for hours, as it is now. I have a bad fever and it makes the anxiety feel awful because I become so scared from feeling funny. I am so sorry to hear about what everyone is going through, I decided no more meds for me because I can't handle them. I was on Xanax for a long time and it was a living nightmare being dragged straight through Hell to get off of them. Hugs all around. I can't offer any advice to be honest, I still don't know how to deal with any of this.
Jerbsinator Posted June 9, 2012 Posted June 9, 2012 My mother is bipolar and it's really hard sometimes. She just isn't motivated to do anything, even when she is healthy. And when she is sick she is so negative. It's hard to get healthy when you convince yourself that you won't.
Triratna Posted June 10, 2012 Author Posted June 10, 2012 My mother is bipolar and it's really hard sometimes. She just isn't motivated to do anything' date=' even when she is healthy. And when she is sick she is so negative. It's hard to get healthy when you convince yourself that you won't. [/quote'] Yes that's the thing. The depression is a damn illusion, they are as real as every data and ID inside long term memory turns to pollutions. It affect both mind, behaviors, attitude while subconsciously blaming & accusing & killing a healthy character. It's not something that be easily ignore or dispel. As result self debating and self conversing happens. My little brothers was worried when i did, The western has better knowledge & perspective to deal schizophrenia in gentle way. Here on South east Asia things are ugly for both patient and their family. To be frank, my second house maid are a depressive bipolar person. She scare the helluva me too sometimes. She was far better before she moves in, well fed and well dressed and well rested and got paid too. But we can't avoid depressive episode when it happens - Then it's personal FIGHT or FLEE mind situations - last thing we need in this is eye witness. My Grandmother sister has it the worst, She is prideful and unaware of her bipolar condition, refuse to control herself; In the end her mind takes over her life entirely and shit happens everyday. My grandmother & my aunts sent her to old orphanage and she is causing trouble daily. I visited her recently and the orphanage nun HAD enough about her. This is what will happen if a bipolar give in to their mind. I deal with mine accordingly, at least now i know how to deal it then i used to be. Though It's not something that can be easily exposed openly in Asian family and Asian public. Asian Psychiatrist are dumb, their job doesn't pay as much as a dentist; lastly Asian Asylum are no better than a sewer with bars.# Okay, I gotta fix my breakfast. ------------------------------- Thank you for hearing this madman ranting. Bipolar are very much human ** We keep our worry to ourselves so you don't have to be. *** Respect & hugs *** Don't lose yourself.
thesapien Posted June 10, 2012 Posted June 10, 2012 I used to think my family was abnormal. My mom was on meds and mixed it with vodka every night. One night she tried to down a bottle of meds to end her pain while my sister and I wrestled with her to get the bottle away. My sister, years later, succeeded in her own suicide attempt. I have another sister who believes she is possessed by a demon, though she used to think it was an alien with tentacles that she could see coming out of her vagina, seriously. My dad was mostly absent until I left my mom to give him a try. Yeah, he's a sociopath who also had a drinking problem. Now, I don't know what is normal, really. So many people with similar stories. Me, I'm unreasonably happy. I don't scare myself with thoughts of suicide and most nights sleep very soundly. I don't know why. I wish had advice or some magical cure all suggestion that worked for everybody but have nothing of the sort. I haven't talked to anybody in my family in years, if that helps. I'm not on any medications either. I have a good friend who I visited often in a psych ward/mental hospital. She suffers from multiple-sclerosis which seems linked to her mental breakdowns. She once tried to hurt herself but told me later that she got the idea from another patient. This is why I don't tell people what exactly she did so that they won't get the idea. I mention this as one small example of why mental hospitals should be avoided at all costs. Another is that they can force you to take drugs. Personally, I'm extremely biased against Western psychology (studied it a lot in college and on my own) and see it as just another folk medicine merely pretending to be based in science by using big, fancy words. I believe practitioners do mean well, however, I also think they often do more harm than good. I see pharmacology as big money and drug pushers, though I do understand why they don't see themselves that way, which makes my saying that even harder. The only advice I might have is this: Become your own expert on your own health. What is more important to you than your own well being? I can't think of anything. Thus, I'm not about to put those important decisions and trust in someone else no matter their credentials because they, too, are only human and fallible and probably have mental issues of their own. If and when I do seek guidance from another, they'd better be a near perfect specimen of health, fitness, and happiness, living and practicing exactly what they preach.
Triratna Posted June 10, 2012 Author Posted June 10, 2012 I used to think my family was abnormal. My mom was on meds and mixed it with vodka every night. One night she tried to down a bottle of meds to end her pain while my sister and I wrestled with her to get the bottle away. My sister' date=' years later, succeeded in her own suicide attempt. I have another sister who believes she is possessed by a demon, though she used to think it was an alien with tentacles that she could see coming out of her vagina, seriously. My dad was mostly absent until I left my mom to give him a try. Yeah, he's a sociopath who also had a drinking problem. Now, I don't know what is normal, really. So many people with similar stories. Me, I'm unreasonably happy. I don't scare myself with thoughts of suicide and most nights sleep very soundly. I don't know why. I wish had advice or some magical cure all suggestion that worked for everybody but have nothing of the sort. I haven't talked to anybody in my family in years, if that helps. I'm not on any medications either. I have a good friend who I visited often in a psych ward/mental hospital. She suffers from multiple-sclerosis which seems linked to her mental breakdowns. She once tried to hurt herself but told me later that she got the idea from another patient. This is why I don't tell people what exactly she did so that they won't get the idea. I mention this as one small example of why mental hospitals should be avoided at all costs. Another is that they can force you to take drugs. Personally, I'm extremely biased against Western psychology (studied it a lot in college and on my own) and see it as just another folk medicine merely pretending to be based in science by using big, fancy words. I believe practitioners do mean well, however, I also think they often do more harm than good. I see pharmacology as big money and drug pushers, though I do understand why they don't see themselves that way, which makes my saying that even harder. The only advice I might have is this: Become your own expert on your own health. What is more important to you than your own well being? I can't think of anything. Thus, I'm not about to put those important decisions and trust in someone else no matter their credentials because they, too, are only human and fallible and probably have mental issues of their own. If and when I do seek guidance from another, they'd better be a near perfect specimen of health, fitness, and happiness, living and practicing exactly what they preach. [/quote'] Anti depressant drugs doesn't promote natural rest, Most people woke up with a nausea, headache and memory lost. Alcohol is not an options either. Mixing both is extremely unhealthy. Bipolar has extreme depressed episode and Extreme mania episode without first consuming anything to begin with. keep it simple it feels like a human yo-yo, As the string unwinds, much of the energy is converted into irrational thoughts, Experience base. The mood swings is like a gravity, Up and Down - Extremely Light and extremely heavy that triggers without warning. If unchecked lead to series of strange behavior, speech and humiliating actions as we losing it. It can be anticipated by personal awareness - it'll feels like holding ourselves not to fly weightless and not to be crushed under heavy pressure. Feels like a fish. Unlike Flu, There is no real medicine to cure schizophrenia. Save the money for lemon and mint leaves.
Triratna Posted June 11, 2012 Author Posted June 11, 2012 And Bible said: Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." Luke 23:34. I don't know if this help any fellow Bipolar or which mental illness you have. Christian or not, God forgive madmen as we do not know what we're doing (Apart from the suicides). During any Depressive episode it's self loathing & guilt trip. All the enough reason for suicide for any normal sane men. Normal People doesn't forgive or forget and accept madmen when they see one, But God accept forgives madmen for they do not know what they have done. It's a huge hope for any struggling madmen or madwoman to hold into.
Triratna Posted June 15, 2012 Author Posted June 15, 2012 Damn, I'm at mania episode again for a very long time. Excessive happiness, euphoria, horny, fast metabolism and insomniac. Anyway, the mania will peaking to extreme tonight and i'll be 'gone complete maniac'. This is time to mod or to pursue artistic goal until i exhausted the hypomania state and turn into a depressed self hating moron once again. I so feel so exited & energized & extreme high. This excitement are real and does more has many undesirable consequences, it feels like i was being on drugs. Any suggestion from fellow Bipolar or Hypomania. How do you dealt with your mania situation? This is creeppy cuz i can skip dinner and breakfast all together and still go to gym in between.
Dreamer102 Posted June 19, 2012 Posted June 19, 2012 From your descriptions I wonder if I might need some help. I've been vastly up and then down over the past 5 years. Defintiely not bipolar...but depression may be real.
GrimReaperCalls Posted June 20, 2012 Posted June 20, 2012 This might not help anyone, but I'm a very much routine-driven person. Keeping a very strict schedule might appear as being boring or even obsessive to some, but I find it to help a lot to minimize mood-fluctuations. A good example is physical exercise, doesn't have to be anything flashy, push-ups and sit-ups are the easiest ones. Keep a steady schedule of twice a week. Keeping a steady rhythm in your daily activity is also very important. Listen to your internal clock (or if your internal clock goes haywire, decide the rhythm yourself) and from there make a specific schedule for eating, sleeping, etc. (hell, if you're really serious you can even time your backroom breaks). Having a time-period over which your body can always expect sleep/food doesn't strain your body and psyche as much as a messy life does. A monotonous life might seem dull, but if it helps it's definitely worth it. Good luck and best wishes, //David.
Triratna Posted June 21, 2012 Author Posted June 21, 2012 From your descriptions I wonder if I might need some help. I've been vastly up and then down over the past 5 years. Definitely not bipolar...but depression may be real. I haven't mention my youth mad behavioral life history, It was hardly normal to compare with another 'normal' children. If you haven't do disturbing behavior like playing with your droll as 'alchemy' reagent, ate pet food, cut yourself and sink to endless despair w/o reason for month then gets completely high without any drugs, Ever skip foods and sleep, draw nor wrote gibberish mad retarded words in your room walls with a marker, Kill your favorite pet for no reason or mind blank. --- Then you're very Normal (as child or high schooler or any age category). Back when i was a kid i almost kill my youngest brother. During my mania state, i pushed him and he fell down to first floor. Luckily he didn't hit the stone floor but hit the soils, i felt no guilt, fear, sorrow or sorry, since i'm on mania. I did all that sort of demented and lunacy before and just realized my bipolar condition this year. When a bipolar child grown into adult enough to realize his condition and past maniac / demented behavior. It'll hurts the person social, image, soul and identity. It's like a long wake up call, now i had to deal with extreme mood gravity and build back my sanity and dignity with anything i can scrap with to build a character. Even if 20 years too late, it's better than not to realize it at all. ------------------------ Love & Respect.
Jormungandr Posted June 24, 2012 Posted June 24, 2012 This might not help anyone' date=' but I'm a very much routine-driven person. Keeping a very strict schedule might appear as being boring or even obsessive to some, but I find it to help a lot to minimize mood-fluctuations. A good example is physical exercise, doesn't have to be anything flashy, push-ups and sit-ups are the easiest ones. Keep a steady schedule of twice a week. Keeping a steady rhythm in your daily activity is also very important. Listen to your internal clock (or if your internal clock goes haywire, decide the rhythm yourself) and from there make a specific schedule for eating, sleeping, etc. (hell, if you're really serious you can even time your backroom breaks). Having a time-period over which your body can always expect sleep/food doesn't strain your body and psyche as much as a messy life does. A monotonous life might seem dull, but if it helps it's definitely worth it. Good luck and best wishes, //David. [/quote'] Holy crisp... i'm going nuts even with the slightest kind of routine, i'd hate to live by a schedule. It already annoys me to see people planning the next day. My 2 cents: I'm one of the people with the famous tourette-syndrome, leaning strongly towards mania focused on anger, that'd be some sort of monopolar behavior i guess. There is no depression for me, alone due to the fact that i hate depressions, evertime i notice i'm getting depressed even in the slightest way, it automatically angers me turning a lame minimal depression into a state next to going berserk at it's worst, i get have the urge to hit things/people randomly or even just to destroy some random stuff. That started at the age of 5 for me, lived with it until i almost killed a class mate in the 7th grade out of a rage because he provoked me (guess tourette is funny for kids). I was 15 years old at that time. Ever since then i began to think about my personality, forcing myself to stay calm, had my last rage attack around 6 years ago so i think i somehow managed myself up to today. But the urge is always present.
GrimReaperCalls Posted June 24, 2012 Posted June 24, 2012 Holy crisp... i'm going nuts even with the slightest kind of routine' date=' i'd hate to live by a schedule. It already annoys me to see people planning the next day. [/quote'] Really xD? If I have something important to do the next day I can't relax until I've planned it out perfectly and have at least one back-up plan should something extremely urgent come up 8D. Pretty awesome how different people can be!
Triratna Posted June 25, 2012 Author Posted June 25, 2012 Madness leads inadequate of life, we can control insanity once we recognize it. But there is always some pressure to keep it in check. Keeping sanity takes a lot of calories & Sometimes this can leads to self talk or self argue. My body weight 55.kg or 122 lbs. At least i can do my daily routine & job without incident or embarrassing myself like last years. well accident seldom happen, schizophrenia is so slippery like soap. "Mind is a powerful tool. It can be trained, again & again & again." Always Anticipate when the episodes trigger, it cannot be ignored but it can be controlled with enough motivation or self respect. Both episodes is an equally ugly bitches.
Triratna Posted June 26, 2012 Author Posted June 26, 2012 I KNOW I am crazy, THAT is what keeps me from going INSANE.
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