Can't live without Skyrim - I think I may have a problem

[Hentai-chan]

Two days ago, in an attempt to make room in my hard drive, I uninstalled Skyrim and deleted the MO folder. And it was good. A lot of space had opened up in my hard drive. I didn't have that thing at the back of head. I felt free.

 

But then a few hours ago, I opened my Steam account, moved the cursor toward "The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim", right-clicked opening drop down menu and clicked "Install Game..." (on D drive). And that was it. A few days of freedom from a game I barely even play anymore. That I ended up installing again. This isn't the first time it happened. I had uninstalled Skyrim for otherr reasons in the past. One time I was furious at it and decided I'd be better off without it. One time I wanted to save up space on my drive for no particular reason. Which wasn't this time, mind you. But I had been thinking off installing Neverwinter to have another go at it. Each time I uninstalled it I ended up re-installing it shortly afterwards.

 

It's as if my characters are calling for me. I can't recall their faces but their memory still lingers. They urge me install Skyrim even if it means gathering digital dust in the Steam Library that I had split between all of my hard drives (There are three, by the way). But I don't know why I keep it around. The only time I'm willing to play Skyrim is when I am alone. And with the fall/winter semester having started I am hardly alone at all times. There are other games I want to play but Skyrim wants to be installed, regardless.

 

Does anybody feel this way? To hold on to something even when you barely even look at it? Like that girl you know is pure and innocent but she wants to stand by you even though you'll never look at her the way she looks at you.

[azerty852]

Get a bigger hard drive. You will never get rid of your addiction. That game is worse than skooma.

[windpl]

Not my writing but fit in here nicely, I just bold the important part in this case.

Social reasons
* social ineptitude
* social deficiencies or syndromes (like Asbergers)
* social style (how you behave in relations to others - your social personality really) that prioritises task over persons - this is normal and not a problem and it's very very common.

Psychological reasons
* psychological issues, trauma, fear
* past traumas, social phobias
* personal programming (life experiences have taught them that objects are more reliable and less distressing to invest in, than other people)

Relational or circumstantial reasons
* relationship discomfort - can be constant or seasonal; like avoiding a partner, a difficult conversation  or a frustrating relational impasse, or being ill-equipped to deal with (particular kinds of ) relational stressors.
* massive intellectual investment (in the case of someone having an emotional connection with a invention, project etc)
* sentimentality connected to unresolved emotions (in the case of attachment with an object that once belonged to someone else, or was shared with someone else eg. the car he build with his dad)

 

 

[Kshahdoo]

Two days ago, in an attempt to make room in my hard drive, I uninstalled Skyrim and deleted the MO folder. And it was good. A lot of space had opened up in my hard drive. I didn't have that thing at the back of head. I felt free.

 

But then a few hours ago, I opened my Steam account, moved the cursor toward "The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim", right-clicked opening drop down menu and clicked "Install Game..." (on D drive). And that was it. A few days of freedom from a game I barely even play anymore. That I ended up installing again. This isn't the first time it happened. I had uninstalled Skyrim for otherr reasons in the past. One time I was furious at it and decided I'd be better off without it. One time I wanted to save up space on my drive for no particular reason. Which wasn't this time, mind you. But I had been thinking off installing Neverwinter to have another go at it. Each time I uninstalled it I ended up re-installing it shortly afterwards.

 

It's as if my characters are calling for me. I can't recall their faces but their memory still lingers. They urge me install Skyrim even if it means gathering digital dust in the Steam Library that I had split between all of my hard drives (There are three, by the way). But I don't know why I keep it around. The only time I'm willing to play Skyrim is when I am alone. And with the fall/winter semester having started I am hardly alone at all times. There are other games I want to play but Skyrim wants to be installed, regardless.

 

Does anybody feel this way? To hold on to something even when you barely even look at it? Like that girl you know is pure and innocent but she wants to stand by you even though you'll never look at her the way she looks at you.

Don't worry There is nothing odd here. Skyrim is more than just a game - this is a second life. If you tired to play, take a break. There is no reason uninstall it completelly. I can tell you from my personal experience, Skyrim is the only game, that always stay on my hard drive. I install othere games, complete them, and then uninstall them. But Skyrim stays all the time, all this years, since the day, it was released

[ReverseGear]

Only time it gets uninstalled is when I f*ck up the game to the point of it not working at all anymore or when I went from my laptop to PC. It's not on the laptop anymore. Everything else seems normal here though. Nothing wrong. Keep up the good work.

[s666]

I don't understand why you feel guilty, because you like Skyrim.

I really like my followers by exemple, they are not real i know, but they are like a presence for me, and i really don't feel guilty about that.

 

[Loveryus]

I always play it for a long time like 1-2 months with bondage mods and sex stuff. Than I realize that my body feels like it's dying and uncomfortable and also my mind is empty, cause I want to enter the game completely, which I can't. The sex part kills my charisma aswell so I feel like a filthy drug addict. That's the point where I uninstall it and find something to keep my busy like hanging out at bars, going to the gym, doing extreme sports or karaoke... That way I'm buys and enjoy my reintegration into life to the point where I realize that I don't have a chance getting a beautiful girlfriend, cause I'm both physically and mentally not the dream guy (small, little self-esteem, honest and not that smart). Feeling like an unwanted guest on a party full of people that are either stupid or better and above my league I install Skyrim/FalloutNV again. I found my sport and until I got injured I felt awesome... Now I can't do it anymore cause it's too cold. Next summer I'll be doing it again and it definitely will keep me away from Skyrim.

[vram1974]

It can be hard to kick a good drug addiction, which is what video games tend to be. It took 3 years to kick Diablo 2.

 

It's easier to quit when you know you don't enjoy it anymore, as you seem to be not enjoying it. It's harder when you're fully immersed in the drug and think about it when you wake up and all through the day.