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Am I a bitch?

Evaloves4

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Last three days I was introducing Tina to hotel management job and teaching her how to do the correspondences and administrative work the way my boss likes. She is very intelligent and she picked things quite easily and quickly. I’m sure she will be of the great help to my boss and to his replacement. I was surprised when my boss took me and my luvs to the lunch in Wednesday and he asked me if I would like to accept the new job. He offered me to be external associate, to do the projects for the Hotel. He likes my ideas, projects and suggestions and I will be paid for it. I wasn’t sure about it at first because, besides helping my family, I had my Prince and Ivy in mind, their baby whom I want to be second mom. I asked my luvs what they think about it and when they said they will support me whatever I decide, I accepted his offer, but I told him that my family business, my Ivy and Prince and their baby is my priority. He agreed with me and said that I can reject projects if I’m preoccupied. He was very happy that I accepted his offer.

 

 

Although my Fran and I are leaving Hotel, boss will not employ new workers. He thinks we have a good teams and since my Prince and Ivy staying they will organize the work and people as it is needed. The first “wave” of season workers will leave in Monday and my Prince and Ivy will be busy at the Hotel helping teams in checking inventories and making sure that all goes well and without incidents. Zdenka applied for the loan at her bank. She wants to renovate, improve, redecorate apartments in villa and build 3 new bungalows on villa’s property so we’ll be ready for more guests next summer season. She will get it because she gave her house under mortgage. Since apartments in villa are “reserved” for those with deep pockets, bungalows will be for those with less deep pockets. Boss found excellent solution for renting her house. He told her that he talked to his substitute who will arrive at the beginning of the October and he will need a place to stay. He’ll pay any sum she wants. Zdenka accepted his idea and she will rent her house to him.

 

 

My dad misses Marko very much. They used to hang around every day; going fishing, or in pub or helping each other around the house, cars and similar. Although my Fran is older than my Prince he is still “too young” to be my dad’s pal. Generations gap. He first lost Prince’s uncle whom he loved very much, then Marko and he feels lonely. He has other friends but none of them are family and they aren’t so close as he was with Uncle and Marko. When I told my boss about it he said that when he returns from Switzerland after B.W.’s surgery, they will hang around much more. Although my boss isn’t joker like Marko, he and my dad has good relationship and enjoy having fun.

 

 

We had second wedding rehearsal with Nick and Adrianna who are getting married on September, 8th. They will have a church wedding too and my Prince and Ivy will perform his two love songs for them in the church. Hotel band will play on their wedding and will be paid for the job. Adriana’s parents were still reserved toward us and they minimally communicated with us; only when they had to. Adriana told us to ignore them.

 

 

After the conversation with my boss in Wednesday I started to think about my job at villa and the projects for Hotel. I can do it from my home. All I need is Internet, computer and phone which I have. I came to crazy idea: I want to have a baby with my Prince. My boss needs and counts on my Prince and Ivy in the Hotel, but I’m free. More I thought about it, more I want it. There was only one problem: my Ivy. We can't get pregnant in the same time. My Prince is very needed in the Hotel and our pregnancy will be very stressful for him. His job is already stressful enough. Imagine having two moody pregnant women in the same house. But, desire to have a baby completely consumed me. I didn’t know how to say it to my Ivy without hurting her feelings for I knew how much she was rejoicing to have a baby with him. I couldn’t tell no one about my “burden”. Not even to my Fran. So when we were on our beach yesterday after the work I was very silent. They both noticed me being silent and they asked me what is wrong. I looked at my Ivy and I felt sad. I couldn’t ask her. But, they didn’t let me alone. They wanted to know what’s bugging me. I didn’t know how to start. Then I asked my Ivy:

- Honey, you like to work with Prince, right?

Ivy: Of course, Princess. I love every second being with him. Why do you ask?

Me: Amm … won’t you be missing working with him when you become pregnant?

Ivy kissed him and said:

- I surely will. I hate to be separated from him, but, I’ll find the comfort in carrying his baby …. Honey, what’s bugging you?

Seeing her glowing and being happy when talking about her pregnancy I gave up from asking her and I told them to forget about all thing. They became even more intrigued and wanted to hear what is troubling me. I heard myself saying:

- I want to have a baby with him first.

My Ivy was shocked. Then she got mad. She stood up and with tears in her eyes she said to me:

- I didn’t expect you’ll ever be such a bitch, Princess.

She angrily walked to our house. I called her telling her to let me explain, but she didn’t want to hear it. My Prince wasn’t angry at me. He was only confused hearing me saying I want to have the baby. He went after her and I started to cry blaming myself for being stupid and for hurting her. While I was crying, calling myself names and hating, my Prince and Ivy returned. They sat next to me and I looked at her face. Her eyes were swollen and red from crying. Then she said to me:

- I’m listening; why do you want to have a baby first?

I wanted to kiss her before I start to explain but she avoided my kiss. It hurt me. I collected courage and I started to explain why. In short: I told her that I will have more free time, that I will be at home most of the time and similar things while boss needs my Prince and her in the Hotel especially when he goes to Switzerland with his wife. I told her that she might have a baby with him next year. My Ivy didn’t say a word but tears flew from her eyes. She stood up and jumped in to the sea. Just as my Prince would do in such moments. I started to cry again. My Prince embraced me and he comforted me kissing me and cuddling my head. My Ivy swam and dived quite long. When she came out of the water, she straddled me, grabbed me for my head and deep kissed me. Then she said:

- You’ve right, Princess …… You should have a baby first ….. I can wait one year …… Boss needs us and I can’t let Prince carry all the job burdens alone ….. But, more important: I love you and if having the baby first will make you happy then I want you to be happy.

I blasted in happy cry. I hugged her firmly and showered her with kisses, “thank yous” and “love yous”.  She cried too. When we stopped crying we asked my Prince what he thinks about it. He said that he wants to have a baby with both of us and he doesn’t mind who will be the first because he loves us equally. We had very good sex on the beach afterwards. All went well at the end. My Ivy proved again that she is completely “Princelike” for she lives according his parole: “it’s not important what makes me happy, but what makes you happy.” When we were laying on our air mattress before the sleep I asked her again if she is Okay if I have the baby first. She leaned over my Prince, smiled at me, kissed me and said:

- Of course, I’m Okay, Princess. Can’t wait to see you pregnant …… Your child will be very beautiful just as you are.

She melted me and I deep kissed her. We started to smooch and cuddle. My Prince made us laugh saying:

- If you have in plan to fuck, witches let me know so I can go to the bedroom for I’m about to sleep.

We showered him with kisses laughing hard and we fucked him very good. We completely exhausted him. LOL. So, next week my Prince and I will visit doctors to do a health check and to make sure we are both healthy and can have a baby. After positive results, we will start to work on the baby.

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daedal

you seem nice 

congrats 

"She stood up and jumped in to the sea. Just as my Prince would do in such moments"

I don't understand this metaphor 

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Evaloves4
3 minutes ago, daedal said:

you seem nice 

congrats 

"She stood up and jumped in to the sea. Just as my Prince would do in such moments"

I don't understand this metaphor 

Thank you. :)

When my Prince is angry or disturbed, he always jump in the sea and swim to cool down. My Ivy never did that before. She used to swear a yell, but she became very much like my Prince doing the things as he would do.

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daedal
2 hours ago, EvalovesEP said:

Thank you. :)

When my Prince is angry or disturbed, he always jump in the sea and swim to cool down. My Ivy never did that before. She used to swear a yell, but she became very much like my Prince doing the things as he would do.

she literally jumped into an ocean?

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Evaloves4
1 hour ago, daedal said:

she literally jumped into an ocean?

Yes. It wasn't metaphor. We have a house by the Adriatic sea and own beach.

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daedal
14 hours ago, EvalovesEP said:

Yes. It wasn't metaphor. We have a house by the Adriatic sea and own beach.

damn you guys must be rich huh

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Tirloque

You know, now that you write about having a child, I don't know if it was intentional or not, but I think that might explain part of the reasons why you resigned your current job despite it being a nearly ideal one in a 16% unemployment rate country. Maybe you were not aspiring for a career, despite everyone pushing you towards it.

 

Now, I think this is a very delicate matter. 'cause to me, that's the major foreseeable weakness of a triangle couple : the first one having a child might create a lot of jealously from the second one of the same sex. Until that one gets a child too that is.

 

I am amazed about Ivy's reaction, however, which was way more mature and loving than I expected. You did the same previously when she asked to be the first and you went for your studies. Putting another's interest before oneself is a true sign of love. And, IMO, true love is one of the conditions for your triangle to resist the firstborn trial. :classic_smile:

2 hours ago, daedal said:

damn you guys must be rich huh

Not necessarily rich, but not poor either. Don't forget that Croatia might be different than the countries you know. :classic_smile:

 

 

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Evaloves4
6 hours ago, daedal said:

damn you guys must be rich huh

No, we aren't reach. We are high middle class family. Tourism in our country is most profitable industry and we have very good salaries. As Trilog rightly said: our country is quite different then Western countries. In comparison with most of them, we are poor country. :) But in comparison with many Croatians we are rich according to our living standard.

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Evaloves4
5 hours ago, Tirloque said:

You know, now that you write about having a child, I don't know if it was intentional or not, but I think that might explain part of the reasons why you resigned your current job despite it being a nearly ideal one in a 16% unemployment rate country. Maybe you were not aspiring for a career, despite everyone pushing you towards it.

 

Now, I think this is a very delicate matter. 'cause to me, that's the major foreseeable weakness of a triangle couple : the first one having a child might create a lot of jealously from the second one of the same sex. Until that one gets a child too that is.

 

I am amazed about Ivy's reaction, however, which was way more mature and loving than I expected. You did the same previously when she asked to be the first and you went for your studies. Putting another's interest before oneself is a true sign of love. And, IMO, true love is one of the conditions for your triangle to resist the firstborn trial. :classic_smile:

Not necessarily rich, but not poor either. Don't forget that Croatia might be different than the countries you know. :classic_smile:

 

 

1. No it wasn't intentional or planned, my friend. It simply came by itself when I was thinking about my work. In one of my diaries I said how I believed that being the head receptionist is the top of my carrier. I was never sickly ambitious. My boss "pushed" me into, assistant position first, and then, into hotel manager position. I accept it because it was the rare opportunity for the person of my age. I didn't even think about possibility to be a hotel manager. Much competent, more educated and more experienced people striven for this position and they never get it. It was offered to me "on the plate".

 

2. Ivy and I love each other very much. Before we met my Prince she always fulfilled my every desire because I was her princess. She never argued with me and my decision was final. She treated me that way and that's how princess became Princess. :)  But, falling in love with my Prince she changed. Our love passed many trials but we prevailed for we love each other, although she always (99%) takes Prince's side because they became very alike. My Ivy always forgives me when I hurt her which is not often. I'm sure she'll be sad, disappointment and mad at me for some time when she hears that I changed hers and mine plans.  Again, I didn't plan t do it. But, she will forgive me as we always do and we both learned a lot from my Prince and living to make other person happy is our parole too.

 

3. You've right. Ivy reacted very mature although she was hurt. Seeing her hurt made me very sad. If she still wanted to be the first to have a baby, I will give up and let her be the first. Her happiness is also important to me. When she realized that my arguments "hod the water" she let me be the first. The thing that made it "easier" to give up to be the first, was that she is crazy abut my Prince and she loves to be with him all the time. That fact made it also easier in changing her wish.

 

4. You prove again that you are very bright and sharp person and that our trust in you is justified. :) That's why we love to hear your opinion although we disagree sometimes :)

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Tirloque
7 hours ago, EvalovesEP said:

3. You've right. Ivy reacted very mature although she was hurt. Seeing her hurt made me very sad. If she still wanted to be the first to have a baby, I will give up and let her be the first. Her happiness is also important to me. When she realized that my arguments "hod the water" she let me be the first. The thing that made it "easier" to give up to be the first, was that she is crazy abut my Prince and she loves to be with him all the time. That fact made it also easier in changing her wish.

You know both of you are wanting it, maybe from the start. Though indeed, it occurred to me that with her working with Prince (and so having more time with him), training with him and being slightly possessive sometimes ; it didn't seem very balanced psychologically towards you that she also had the first child as well. But in the end, there is always one that would be the first to give birth ; so a painful choice is needed anyway.

7 hours ago, EvalovesEP said:

4. You prove again that you are very bright and sharp person and that our trust in you is justified. :) That's why we love to hear your opinion although we disagree sometimes :)

  Malicia : « That's because he's associated with someone who's even brighter, sharper and trustworthy, yes. He got to learn from the best, you see ? :classic_sleepy: »

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Evaloves4
6 hours ago, Deso561PL said:

Depends what you understand as bitch tbh.

Deso, I was thinking in the context of this diary; was I fair to "break" our agreement and "still" her right to have a baby first?! Were I "the bitch" in this context?

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Evaloves4
5 hours ago, Tirloque said:

You know both of you are wanting it, maybe from the start. Though indeed, it occurred to me that with her working with Prince (and so having more time with him), training with him and being slightly possessive sometimes ; it didn't seem very balanced psychologically towards you that she also had the first child as well. But in the end, there is always one that would be the first to give birth ; so a painful choice is needed anyway.

  Malicia : « That's because he's associated with someone who's even brighter, sharper and trustworthy, yes. He got to learn from the best, you see ? :classic_sleepy: »

You see, Ivy and I never played dirty and rough against each other. NEVER. The exception was only "The bet game" where playing rough and dirty was allowed, but not cheating and lying. I'm million times sure that she wanted me to progress in my carrier and she didn't have hidden agenda. Me either. I would never trick her. The change of my mind happened by coincidence. If Marko didn't pass away, Zdenka wouldn't return to the tourism business and I wouldn't quit my job to help her. Quitting the job wouldn't initiate my desire to have the baby with my Prince first and everything would be as we planned. As you can see, one thing led to another. :)

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Tirloque
3 hours ago, EvalovesEP said:

You see, Ivy and I never played dirty and rough against each other. NEVER. The exception was only "The bet game" where playing rough and dirty was allowed, but not cheating and lying. I'm million times sure that she wanted me to progress in my carrier and she didn't have hidden agenda. Me either. I would never trick her. The change of my mind happened by coincidence. If Marko didn't pass away, Zdenka wouldn't return to the tourism business and I wouldn't quit my job to help her. Quitting the job wouldn't initiate my desire to have the baby with my Prince first and everything would be as we planned. As you can see, one thing led to another. :)

Quitting your job was the occasion of it, but I wonder if, underneath, the child desire wasn't already there.

 

Anyway, answering this is pointless. What's important is to know if Ivy would be able to see you and Prince giving birth to a child, to see the look in both your eyes without feeling some jealousy. It'd take a lot of effort from a woman seeing another give birth with the man she loves. The love she had for Prince felt a bit more possessive than yours, and she had projects in her mind about her future child. If I were to live in a love triangle, I think I'd discuss of it it even more, with the three of you only, to make sure there's not some wound being covered underneath, and how deep it is if there is. :classic_smile:

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4 minutes ago, Tirloque said:

Quitting your job was the occasion of it, but I wonder if, underneath, the child desire wasn't already there.

 

> No, it wasn't. At least it wasn't present for now. I respected our agreement. I knew I would have a child with my Prince one day after her and I was fine with it. :)

 

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What's important is to know if Ivy would be able to see you and Prince giving birth to a child, to see the look in both your eyes without feeling some jealousy. It'd take a lot of effort from a woman seeing another give birth with the man she loves. The love she had for Prince felt a bit more possessive than yours, and she had projects in her mind about her future child.

> My Ivy and I were never jealous at each other no matter what. I wasn't jealous at her when she "privatized" my Prince few times for I understood her feeling and the need for him. She wasn't jealous at me in similar situations which I didn't mention in my diaries ;):P I know my Ivy more then 10 years. I know she accepted our "switching". She doesn't resent me and she will wait a year to get a baby. We are not competing against each other. We love same man and we always find a compromise. Our advantage for similar situations is our love for each other. And That love overcomes all problems and disagreements. :)

 

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I think I'd discuss of it it even more ...

> Surely. Our healthy love relationship isn't guarantee that we can't be hurt again over same thing. But, I do not worry since I know my Ivy and she knows me. :)

 

Thank you for being considerable about this matter. I'm glad you are. That means you care :) Anyway, we'll be fine, trust me. I know our straights and weaknesses. If she said she's OK with it, then she is OK. She is mentally stronger then me. I'm more emotional. If I was in her place, I might have doubts and feel bad, but not her. :)

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Deso561PL
4 hours ago, EvalovesEP said:

Deso, I was thinking in the context of this diary; was I fair to "break" our agreement and "still" her right to have a baby first?! Were I "the bitch" in this context?

 

I know you didin't. But i was mean, what you understand as bitch, because some people are just retarded. Ok my bad. eh.

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Evaloves4
3 minutes ago, Deso561PL said:

 

I know you didin't. But i was mean, what you understand as bitch, because some people are just retarded. Ok my bad. eh.

It's OK, my friend. :) Have no worries. I guess we had communication problem because we both spoke in third language and I wasn't sure if I understood what you wanted to say. Sorry. :)

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