skyrim ctd on load, or switching to female in character creator

[kodamant]

heres my load order, skse minidump, and the papyrus log are right down there

  0  0     Skyrim.esm
  1  1     Update.esm
  2  2     Dawnguard.esm
  3  3     HearthFires.esm
  4  4     Dragonborn.esm
  5  5     Lanterns Of Skyrim - All In One - Main.esm
  6  6     Unofficial Skyrim Legendary Edition Patch.esp
  7  7     SexLab.esm
  8  8     SexLabAroused.esm
  9  9     CreatureFramework.esm
 10  a     hdtHighHeel.esm
 11  b     Campfire.esm
 12  c     RaceCompatibility.esm
 13  d     RSkyrimChildren.esm
 14  e     ZaZAnimationPack.esm
 15  f     Devious Devices - Assets.esm
 16 10     Devious Devices - Integration.esm
 17 11     SkyrimChainBeasts.esm
 18 12     Skyrim - Utility Mod.esm
 19 13     Devious Devices - Expansion.esm
 20 14     Schlongs of Skyrim - Core.esm
 21 15     HighResTexturePack01.esp
 22 16     HighResTexturePack02.esp
 23 17     HighResTexturePack03.esp
 24 18     SOSRaceMenu.esp
 25 19     XPMSE.esp
 26 1a     RealisticWaterTwo.esp
 27 1b     Neithteam Warpaint.esp
 28 1c     Maevan2EyeBrows.esp
 29 1d     EnhancedENBNightEye.esp
 30 1e     ATIB.esp
 31 1f     EpisodeParallax.esp
 32 20     Pureweather.esp
 33 21     Natural Lighting Vivid Atmospherics.esp
 34 22     RevampedExteriorFog.esp
 35 23     Expressive Facegen Morphs.esp
 36 24     HHairstyles.esp
 37 25     SLAL_AnimationsByLeito.esp
 38 26     SLALAnimObj.esp
 39 27     SexLab Aroused Creatures.esp
 40 28     FleshFX.esp
 41 29     DeadlySpellImpacts.esp
 42 2a     DeadlySpellImpacts - Two Fire.esp
 43 2b     WondersofWeather.esp
 44 2c     RASS - Visual Effects.esp
 45 2d     Size Does Matter.esp
 46 2e     RSChildren.esp
 47 2f     RSChildren Patch - USLEEP.esp
 48 30     DBCO_ALL_IN_ONE.esp
 49 31     CommunityOverlays2_31T50.esp
 50 32     Bound Armory Extravaganza.esp
 51 33     VWA_VanillaWarpaintsAbsolution.esp
 52 34     CommunityOverlays3.esp
 53 35     CommunityOverlays1_0T30.esp
 54 36     FreckleMania.esp
 55 37     CosmeticVampireOverhaul.esp
 56 38     Facelight.esp
 57 39     Gwelda Dawnguard Armor.esp
 58 3a     Holidays.esp
 59 3b     SMIM-Merged-All.esp
 60 3c     RealisticWaterTwo - Legendary.esp
 61 3d     SimplyKnock.esp
 62 3e     Chesko_WearableLantern.esp
 63 3f     Magicka Sabers.esp
 64 40     TelekineticPush.esp
 65 41     Dark Dungeons for Skyrim-Dawnguard-Dragonborn.esp
 66 42     Merta Assassin Armor.esp
 67 43     SkyrimChainBeastsIntegration.esp
 68 44     ThiefEyes_GlowingShadowmarks.esp
 69 45     Deviously Cursed Loot.esp
 70 46     RealisticWaterTwo - Waves.esp
 71 47     HornyCreatures.esp
 72 48     Laura's Bondage Shop.esp
 73 49     marriable serana.esp
 74 4a     The Force.esp
 75 4b     RealisticWaterTwo - Dragonborn.esp
 76 4c     True Thief Armor.esp
 77 4d     OverflowingEnchant.esp
 78 4e     Ring of Tamriel02019M7001.esp
 79 4f     InteractiveGallow.esp
 80 50     RealisticWaterTwo - Waves - Dawnguard.esp
 81 51     RealisticWaterTwo - Dawnguard.esp
 82 52     iNeed.esp
 83 53     UnforgivingForce.esp
 84 54     Rudy_ENB_RW2.esp
 85 55     ForgottenMagic_Redone.esp
 86 56     The Manipulator.esp
 87 57     Apocalypse - The Spell Package.esp
 88 58     WRF_by_RolandSir_Main_file_DG.esp
 89 59     VLW_Hybrid.esp
 90 5a     FreckleMania2.esp
 91 5b     ContinueGameNoCrash.esp
 92 5c     Elegant Beauty Stunning Eyes Remastered.esp
 93 5d     Ruby Red Vampire Eyes - Beast Race Support.esp
 94 5e     AwpDioBrandoVampire.esp
 95 5f     Za Warudo.esp
 96 60     ShoutCD.esp
 97 61     TruePowerSeparateSpells.esp
 98 62     firstDragonbornMiraak.esp
 99 63     LoksEyes.esp
100 64     TrueDragonblood-DawnguardV001.esp
101 65     TrueDragonblood-DragonboornV001.esp
102 66     ZA85LightDaedricArmor.esp
103 67     Uncle Sheo.esp
104 68     UIExtensions.esp
105 69     LICH - Vampire Lord Replacer - TheGreyLight.esp
106 6a     AddItemMenuLE.esp
107 6b     RaceCompatibilityUSKPOverride.esp
108 6c     MainMenu.esp
109 6d     SkyUI.esp
           LPBards.esp
110 6e     Spare.esp
111 6f     UndertaleDBM.esp
112 70     Spear of Justice Music Mod.esp
113 71     Undertale Spells.esp
114 72     SkyrimChainBeastsDB.esp
115 73     APU_Automatic Perk Unlocking.esp
116 74     RaceMenuMorphsUUNP.esp
117 75     Let's dance again.esp
118 76     DeadlyDragons.esp
119 77     DragonBreathMasterSpells .esp
120 78     EstrusChaurus.esp
121 79     zzEstrus.esp
122 7a     FNIS.esp
123 7b     RaceMenuOverlays.esp
124 7c     RaceMenu.esp
125 7d     SexLabTools.esp
126 7e     SkyrimConfigMenu.esp
127 7f     SLAnimLoader.esp
128 80     RaceMenuPlugin.esp
129 81     SLA Monitor Widget.esp
130 82     LTAJC_LightElvenArmor.esp
131 83     SOS - VectorPlexus Muscular Addon.esp
132 84     Schlongs of Skyrim.esp
133 85     Tiwa44_Minidresses.esp
134 86     Tiwa44_Minidresses_Dragonborn.esp
135 87     KaiSFemaleHHDT.esp
136 88     Real Clouds.esp
137 89     [Dint999] KSH's HDT.esp
138 8a     FemaleWerewolf.esp
139 8b     KS Hairdo's.esp
140 8c     Alternate Start - Live Another Life.esp
141 8d     ELE_Legendary_Lite.esp
142 8e     Bashed Patch, 0.esp

 

Papyrus.0.log 2020-06-06_06.01.08.dmp