If someone asks me what my favourite mod is I would definitely name Deviously Cursed Loot by Kimy. It was the reason I started playing modded Skyrim in the first place and since then it was always in my load order. One of the features of this mod is a special prison where naughty girls as myself end up eventually. It is heavily themed around insanely restrictive bondage and doing tedious repeating tasks - quite a painful and punishing experience from gameplay perspective. But what about... serious approach?

As I've mentioned before things don't seem so boring and repetitive when you experience not as a player controlling the character but as a character itself. I've been thinking of experiencing Dagonar prison with full immersion for some time and yesterday I finally had a chance to give it a try.

I had a simple rule - I am a prisoner and until I serve my sentence I cannot leave the game. I also have to be tied as close as possible to my character on the screen. Of course I have to improvise because I don't have exactly all the gear and some gear would be neither impossible to put on without additional help nor control my character.

So, for this session I used the following gear:

- a gamepad for controlling the character - I usually use my keyboard for that, but it is the only way to play with your hands tied behind, it also adds to discomfort and frustration

- a locking posture collar with a ring attached to it

- a pair of handcuffs - if a character has her hands bound behind her (like in armbinder). For bondage with hands in front (including yoke and pillory) I was just using a padlock to attach handcuffs to the collar

- a ballgag

- ankle cuffs closely locked together

- two leather belts - one for tying my thighs (simulating hobble dresses and staightjacket) and one for my shoulders (to feel pressure from armbinders and straightjacket)

- a chastity belt - I never play Skyrim without one, otherwise it would be a relly short and boring experience

- anal hook, attached to the collar - for sex scenes simulation.

- a realistic dildo - for blowjob scenes

- PVC gloves - to decrease abrasion from handcuffs and to simulate the feeling of my body encased in rubber dress or straightjacket

- a woodden paddle - to slap myself during Spank that Ass events or if a whipping animation scene is picked instead of sex scene

First day in Dagonar is always rough. I was sentenced to 3 days and on the first you have to go through all the activities, being constantly sexually abused by prison staff.

I had also forgotten to turn off the rape function from Sexlab Adventures, so let's just say that I had my character fucked so much that the day seemed just endless.

I had to uncuff myself for the sex scenes because I was trying to match the exact frictions that my rapist performed on the screen and also had to spank myself with a paddle during spanking events. If the scene was only including blowjob I remained tied up.

From the start I decided that I will try to run away from this prison collecting quest items needed for the escape.

I was successful in stealing some nails from a mine to make a lockpick but got caught trying to steal the crowbar needed for breaking the hatch to the sewers.

I was immediately searched and all my stuff taken away. I gulped down as my sentence increased for 3 more days. It was now six days that I can't close the game and can't remove my gear. My heart skipped a bit as I realised that. I had to escape no matter what and I needed to collect items again!

In a hopeless attempt to get at least something I managed to steal a key from the guard while making a blowjob. When you suck dicks all day you get used to it and even don't choke much while deepthroating (I always deepthroat when the giver is orgasming until animation ends - it gives a wonderful feeling of being used as a helpless thing). With the key I managed to open the guard quarters to find a knife that I have securely hidden in my sell. I will need it to cut my straightjacket later.

When the day was gone I was taken to my cell and left to sleep in a tight straightjacket. Good thing they brought food and water to the cell although it was extremely difficult to feed myself with the gag in my mouth. There was a visitor that night - a guard came to check on me (and fuck me of course). I didn't resist, I hadn't any strength left after such a crazy day.

I had to disable the rape function from Sexlab Adventures because I figured that it would really slow me down on my sentence. Luckily the prison routine after the 1st day is pretty random and involve lesser sex scenes. I mostly had been cleaning dirt around prison, make food and occasionally serve drinks to the supervisor (and I was awarded with a mandatory blowjob every time). When there was nothing to do I was put on the pillory to helplessly struggle in my bonds.

Unfortunately I didn't have the chance to go to the mines and steal something to make a lockpick again. I think at some point I just gave up and followed the prison routine obediently. The parole hearings had denied me release two times and every time I sobbed in my gag, unable to do anything but hold my tears. The longer you spend in this place the more you realise this is a real punishment, every day looks almost the same. You have to suffer tugging on your bondage that constantly reminds you that you are not free. When a warden herself visited me one night to lick her clean I almost felt like it was my birthday and even hoped that if I perform well my sentence will be shorter. But the relentless rattle of the prison door closing behing her brought me back to reality. No one will help me...

When my time had come I couldn't believe it at first. To my approximate calculation I have spent 3,5 hours of real time in bondage and sexual abuse, my hands were shaking and my jaw was in pain from the ballgag. Taking it off, item after item and getting my freedom back was the most wonderful feeling. Looking back to observe the place I was tormented in I shuddered but at the same time felt like it was incredibly sensual and erotic experience. All I had to do was to take it seriously...