Very soon after I posted my last diary I felt strangely, kind of burdened. Although I love LL community and I’m addicted to it, I felt pressure and I decided to take a break. More important: I had to make very important decision. I will tell you about it in this diary. Anyway, I’m back and I’m glad I am.

Since we have very good summer season, we decided to extend it till October. Preliminary calculations showed that we are in financial plus almost the same as last season. The reason is Americans who rented very expensive V.I.P. apartments and who came thanks to Mister “XXX’s” advertisement. Zdenka had better season than last year. Her income doubled. Of course, thanks to three bungalows that are cheaper than villa apartments. “Our kid” did a great job with boat touring. Zdenka increased his wage and rewarded him extra bonuses. Although I was happy I returned to my work, my happiness melted quickly. I missed my time with my luvs and Mikey who showed more and more interest in me as his mother and needed me more. Whenever I came home I couldn’t satisfied my need for my family. More I was with them, more I want to be with them. I can’t express my joy when we went to evening walks with Mikey or when we all laid on our bed in the bedroom and played with him. I strongly believe that although he is almost 4 months old, he is very aware of having two moms because my Ivy loves him and treat him as her own child. My Prince is still the first one in everything when it comes to Mikey. Believe me when I say: NOTHING and I mean NOTHING is too hard for him to do for his son. When Mikey is cranky and in bad mood or having some minor health problems, he is the one who spend most of the time with him, carrying him around, kissing him and comforting him no matter how many of us are in the house and who stayed over the night. He adores his son and his son adores him. Why am I telling you this?

Successful carrier is selfish bastard that hates your family, friends and private life. You can’t have them both because one of them suffer. Even before I gave a birth to Mikey, I always choose my Prince and Ivy before my carrier because I love them too much. When Mikey was born, my need for them was even stronger. No fucking money and success can compare with what we have and I don’t want to lose it. Realizing that I’m more happier being with my family than at the work; that our time together is more valuable to me and all of us, I thought a lot and decided to go on part time hotel manager job. Before I made my decision I talked to my luvs first. I told them how much they means to me, how impatient I am to hold Ivy’s daughter in my hands and that I actually suffer being without them. My luvs supported my decision without questions and discussion as always. We knew that it will reduce my wage but we are still doing financially good and we can afford it. My Prince said he will work extra as a body guard if we will fall into financial crises. I was very happy when our parents also supported my decision saying that family always comes first. And they proved it in practice. They gathered without our knowledge (Antonio, Fran, Lidija and Ivan were involved too) decided to collect the money difference I’m losing going on part time job, opened account on my name and authorized my Prince and Ivy to pick the money from my account. Yes, my dear readers, no matter how unbelievable this sound to you, but there are families like ours in the world. Not every family fights over heritage or property or money. In our family, everything is commonly. And again, believe me when I say: it’s all my Prince’s merit who connected us all. Hence, I gathered e.b. members and I told them about my decision. Everyone supported me although I didn’t have to have their official approval. I’m starting with 2nd of September. The part of my Hotel wage will go to my Fran and Vinko who will carry my manager’s duties after I’m done with my 4 hours shift. Can’t wait to be with my luvs and my son more.

My Ivy was three months pregnant in 26^th. She is still extremely hot, kept her sporty look although her tummy is bigger. She still exercise and practice martial arts but more carefully. When being tensed because of her hormones, she kicks kicking bag or swim on our beach. As for my Prince, he is missing his sister a lot and he decided to drive to Germany in Sunday with Silvano as co-driver. They will drive non-stop to save the time. They'll eat in the car and one is sleepy, the other will drive. We didn’t want to go with him for two reason: first, it might be emotionally stressful for his sister and second, we wanted to avoid unnecessary questioning and embarrassing situation - who we are to his sister. She will see us on web camera. He plans to visit his sister incognito during her staying in school for children and people with same handicaps. His mother and Kurt will be working and it shouldn't be a problem. They will return right after he spend some time with her. You should see his trainings too. He learned few new moves that he practice in full power kicking kick bag and easier with Silvano because he doesn’t want to hurt him until he learn to control kicks. My Ivy and me admire his athletic body and we sees him as extremely hot while he thinks we exaggerate. You know what is interesting? He never watched his muscles in the front of the mirror and he never made poses in the front of it, us or anyone else showing his muscularity. Mirror only serves to him to see himself shaving and if he washed his teeth properly. My Ivy and me spend a lot of time in the front of the mirror for we want to see that we look perfectly and that whatever we dressed on looks great on us. Damn, I started to babble. Time to close this diary. Have a nice weekend.