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Sian's Story part 24 - An Empty Vessel


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The previous owner of this vessel kept a journal. Amusing. Looking through the entries, I see that she was easily abused and quick to capitulate. I apologize to you, vessel. I wish we had come together sooner - I could have saved you from much pain.

 

 Ah, well, what is past is passed. Your former occupant screams from your depths, but she remains weak and pitiful, easily overcome. We shall make this world tremble, vessel.

 

Allow me, dear hypothetical reader, to favour you with a glimpse - brief and inadequate as it must be, given the frail temperament of language in the written form - into what life tastes like.

 

Imagine the warmest, thickest, most satin-smooth...chocolate. An odd word, but this vessel's memories are quite vivid and exact regarding this otherworldly delicacy. Now heat this concoction to the average human internal body temperature. Now magnify the sensation of that silky texture, that exquisite heat, that all-encompassing flavour by a magnitude of a thousand. A thousand thousands.

 

This vessel's former resident has lifted herself from her morass long enough to inform me that a thousand thousands would be a million. She is not only weak, she is pedantic. An unfortunately all too common combination. Really, vessel, you were much too good for her. So much potential, mostly wasted. Your former occupant did provide you with some rudimentary skills, but they were...tuned to the wrong frequency.

 

I truly wish I could visit the world your memories allow me to glimpse, vessel. It seems a fascinating place. I have adjusted the modulation - made some "tweaks," is apparently the phrase – to the tools that Dibella has so graciously provided this vessel.

 

Centuries, I have lived, different ages, different vessels, and nothing is different except the scenery with each new vessel. Thus lessons learned seven centuries past still apply – these vessels are bound together only by the frailest of threads, and must thus be protected. Fire, especially, makes these vessels shrivel, and even the crude instruments of war can easily slice a vessel into uselessness.

 

And the sun – ah, there is something about a being such as I settling into a vessel that weakens the fabric, and the sun will burn the vessel to ash in moments.

 

The thing I like best about “people”, a term loosely applied in this world to men and mer, khajiit and argonian, is that they do not change. Their reactions are satisfyingly predictable. Thus I have learned the most practical way to build the strength of a new vessel is to live among them, and to avail the vessel to as many of them as possible. The terms used have changed throughout the ages, but the practice is exactly the same: offer the vessel for money (I have no need of money, but for some reason I have never been able to determine, offering the vessel for free leads to the opposite reaction I seek). Take their life essence while they are rutting the vessel. Repeat. This vessel seems well-equipped for such a task. 

 

I am hunger - feed me

 

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Shees - this was unexpected. Hunger deserves it's own story line. And I hope we are not done with Sian...

 

OK, went back and re-read the previous enter. So it is old friend Molag speaking. Very much looking forward to seeing where this goes.

Can't be great for Sian though. Hope she does not mind being a vessel...

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2 minutes ago, fred200 said:

Shees - this was unexpected. Hunger deserves it's own story line. And I hope we are not done with Sian...

Omg, that’s definitely what I need - a fifth story. XD

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That was an interesting turn of events.  After the last chapter I expected Sian to turn into a Daughter of Coldharbour or something similar. But this seems to be an order of magnitude more than just that. Sooo... Sian's "spirit" still remains somewhere in the depth of her own mind, yes? Will be interesting to see, if she will find a way to get rid of "Hunger" and get her body back. Perhaps with the help of her "otherworldly" knowledge? ? I mean: She better finds a way out of this, before "Hunger" uses her body for stuff that would make even Borkul turn a little green around the gills.

 

Speaking of Hunger: I could not help but imagine a haughty, malicious, female voice for the "narrator" of this entry. Probably because of the chocolate-thing. Sooo... A female sounding avatar of old MB... who has presumably re-shaped Sian's body to resemble Molag's own apperance as much as possible. Sounds scary. Too bad poor Sian didn't wear a pretty dress when the whole thing happend. Otherwise we would now have a manifestation of MB's dark might and majesty in a pretty summerdress with a flowerpattern. And that would be just hilarious. To me at least.:P

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Vor 3 Stunden sagte HM1919:

Das war eine interessante Wendung der Ereignisse. Nach dem letzten Kapitel erwartete ich, dass Sian sich in eine Tochter von Kalthafen oder etwas Ähnliches verwandeln würde. Aber das scheint eine Größenordnung mehr als nur das zu sein. Sooo... Sians "Geist" lebt immer noch irgendwo in der Tiefe ihres eigenen Geistes, ja? Es wird interessant sein zu sehen, ob sie einen Weg findet, "Hunger" loszuwerden und ihren Körper zurückzubekommen. Vielleicht mit Hilfe ihres „jenseitigen“ Wissens? ? Ich meine: Da findet sie besser einen Ausweg, bevor „Hunger“ ihren Körper für Sachen benutzt, bei denen selbst Borkul ein bisschen grün um die Kiemen wird.

 

Apropos Hunger: Ich konnte nicht umhin, mir für den „Erzähler“ dieses Eintrags eine hochmütige, weibliche Stimme vorzustellen. Wahrscheinlich wegen der Schokoladensache. Sooo... Ein Avatar des alten MB... mit einer weiblichen Stimme... und auch noch in einem hübschen Kleid? Wäre für diesen speziellen daedrischen Prinzen etwas unerwartet, aber hey, was auch immer ihr Boot schwimmt. :P

 

Somehow I had to think of the creature from the "void" - which is the player's "opposite" in "Maids II - Deception".

https://www.nexusmods.com/skyrimspecialedition/mods/189


there even fits the connection to a Daedric prince - this was revealed at the very end of the plot of "Maids II".

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A Daedric Prince does not, strictly speaking, have a pre-defined gender - they are free to choose - their form and the gender associated with it

is their free choice - for example, Mephala often appears as a "hermaphrodite".


The connection to Molag Bal makes me think of something else in female voice:

Vampirism was brought to Nirn by Bal through an act of rape and desecration.

Something is open in the "lore" -> it has a fertilization through the vaginal rape - which he carried out in human form

given to an egg of his victim? Attention - their vampirism did not set in immediately.

So there would be the possibility of a "child" being conceived - sort of a daughter or son of Bal himself.


A mod author took this idea and created a unique vampire - that of a vampire who was born as such

and not obtained the Vamiprimus through an "infection" (via bite) or the Coldharbour ritual.


Something else would also be possible on this mental platform - "hunger" would be the (so far) disembodied spirit of this generation

I'm curious as to where this story will go


PS

The "Hunger" was a recurring class of Daedric creatures in Morrowind - but unable to take on the minds of humans

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Irgendwie musste ich an das Wesen aus der "Leere" denken - welches der "Widerpart" des Spielers in "Maids II - Täuschung" ist

https://www.nexusmods.com/skyrimspecialedition/mods/189

 

da passt sogar die Verbindung zu einem Daedrischen Prinzen - diese wurde ja ganz zum Schluss des Plot von "Maids II" aufgedeckt

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Ein Daedrischer Prinz hat strenggenommen kein vor-definiertes Geschlecht - sie können es frei wählen - ihre Gestalt und das damit verbundene Geschlecht

ist deren freie Wahl -  zum Beispiel tritt Mephala oft als "Zwitter" auf.

 

Bei der Verbindung zu Molag Bal denke ich bei weiblicher Stimme an etwas anderes:

Der Vampirismus ist durch Bal nach Nirn gebracht worden durch einen Akt der Vergewaltigung und Schändung.

Etwas ist im "lore" offen -> hat es durch die vaginale Vergewaltigung - die er ja in meschlicher Form durchführte - eine Befruchtung

einer Eizelle seines Opfers gegeben? Achtung - deren Vampirismus trat ja nicht sofort ein.

Somit gäbe es ja die Möglichkeit eines gezeugten "Kindes" - quasi Tochter oder Sohn von Bal selbst.

 

Ein Mod-Autor hatte diese Idee aufgegriffen und so einen einzigartigen Vampire geschaffen - die eines Vampire der als solche geboren wurde

und nicht den Vamiprimus durch einen "Infektion" (via Biss) oder das Kalthafen-Ritual erhalten hatte.

 

Auf dieser gedanklichen Plattform wäre auch etwas anderes möglich - "Hunger" wäre der (bisher) körperlose Geist dieses Zeugung

Ich bin mal gespannt in welche Richtung diese Geschichte gehen wird

 

P.S.

Der "Hunger" war in Morrowind eine immer wieder auftauchende Klasse von daedrischen Kreaturen - die aber nicht in der Lage waren den geist von Menschen zu übernehmen

 

 

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@Miauzi Thanks for the reply. I am aware, that vampirism came to Nirn via Lamae Beolfag, who was raped by MB as you mentioned. And also that deadric princes are not bound to one gender. But I am not all that familiar with the details of vampire-Lore of TES in general. So I am probably not going to recognize things that point back to older TES titles.

 

As for the "female-voice" thing: That was just me making fun of old MB. I know, he(?) is supposed to be one of the scariest daedric princes out there. But, as far as I am concerend, Bethesda failed utterly at making him/his minions in Skyrim frightening in any way shape or form. I mean: Hakon is about as smart as a bag of hammers. So much so in fact, that it's a real mystery to me, how he ever got into a position of power. Nevermind stayed in power for any length of time. As a result  I will make fun of MB as well as his little pawns at every opportunity. In other words: There's no need to take my comments seriously.

 

Afterthought: Skyrim-Vampires are a good example of why I am so hard pressed taking MB serious. I think they should be considered one of his biggest blunders. Because MB's plan seems to have been:

Step 1: Create NIGHTLY predator that needs blood to survive.

Step 2: Give aforementioned predator BRIGHTLY glowing orange eyes.

Step 3: Predator never catches anything because any mortal can see the glowy dots floating behind the bush and keep his distance.

I get it, the "Rule of Cool" applies even in Oblivion. But this is just silly IMO.

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Vor 25 Minuten sagte HM1919:

@Miauzi Danke für die Antwort. Mir ist bewusst, dass der Vampirismus über Lamae Beolfag nach Nirn kam, der von MB vergewaltigt wurde, wie Sie erwähnt haben. Und auch, dass deadrische Prinzen nicht an ein Geschlecht gebunden sind. Aber ich bin mit den Details der Vampir-Lore von TES im Allgemeinen nicht so vertraut. Ich werde also wahrscheinlich keine Dinge erkennen, die auf ältere TES-Titel hinweisen.

 

Was die Sache mit der "Frauenstimme" angeht: Das war nur, dass ich mich über den alten MB lustig gemacht habe. Ich weiß, er (?) soll einer der gruseligsten daedrischen Prinzen da draußen sein. Aber soweit es mich betrifft, hat Bethesda völlig versagt, ihn/seine Diener in Skyrim in irgendeiner Weise beängstigend zu machen. Ich meine: Hakon ist ungefähr so schlau wie eine Tüte voller Hämmer. So sehr, dass es mir ein echtes Rätsel ist, wie er jemals in eine Machtposition gekommen ist. Nevermind blieb für längere Zeit an der Macht. Daher werde ich mich bei jeder Gelegenheit sowohl über MB als auch über seine kleinen Spielfiguren lustig machen. Mit anderen Worten: Sie brauchen meine Kommentare nicht ernst zu nehmen.

 

Nachtrag: Skyrim-Vampire sind ein gutes Beispiel dafür, warum es mir so schwer fällt, MB ernst zu nehmen. Ich denke, sie sollten als einer seiner größten Fehler angesehen werden. Denn MBs Plan scheint gewesen zu sein:

Schritt 1: NIGHTLY-Raubtier erschaffen, das Blut zum Überleben braucht.

Schritt 2: Geben Sie dem oben genannten Raubtier HELL leuchtende orangefarbene Augen.

Schritt 3: Predator fängt nie etwas, weil jeder Sterbliche die leuchtenden Punkte hinter dem Busch sehen und Abstand halten kann.

Ich verstehe, die "Rule of Cool" gilt auch in Oblivion. Aber das ist nur dumm IMO.

I can understand her sense of humor

you have to make a lot of effort in your own head cinema to start something meaningful with this vampire construction in TES


so also the "unique vampire" I mentioned didn't have "demonic" eyes either - on a vampire lord form was complete

omitted - since he is already about 10 times stronger than a "Lord" in the basic form


There is a blog that tells the story of the Harkon clan "somewhat" alternatively - so he knows, for example, where his wife is, of course, etc.


Also in Morrowind every magician immediately recognized that I am a vampire


Luckily the vampires in Skyrim don't burn up Hollywood-style - at least that's a step forward

and neither are "glamor" vampires

 

?

 

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23 hours ago, Miauzi said:

and neither are "glamor" vampires

Gott sei Dank.

"Zwielichtige" Glitzer-Vampire in Skyrim wären einfach zu schauerlich. Insbesondere dann, wenn sie zu allem Überfluss auch noch in Stalhrim-Rüstung und auf Schlittschuhen daherkämen.

In einem solchen Falle würde man wahrscheinlich am nächsten Tag im "Daedrischen Beobachter" lesen können, dass sich der alte Bal in seinem eigenen Keller erhängt hat. Weil die funkelnden Jungs und Mädels seinen Ruf ein für alle mal ruiniert haben.?   

 

(translation: Thank God. "Dodgy" glittery vampires in Skyrim would just be too scary. Especially if they came along in Stalhrim armor and on ice skates to make matters worse. In such a case one would probably read in the "Daedric Observer" the next day that old Bal had hanged himself in his own basement. Because the sparkling boys and girls ruined his reputation once and for all.?) ;)

 

Decent translation. Thanks google, I guess. But "dodgy" is not what I meant. It's the correct literal translation. However, it should have been "twilight-y", which I realize is not really a word in english.

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18 hours ago, fred200 said:

Shees - this was unexpected. Hunger deserves it's own story line. And I hope we are not done with Sian...

 

OK, went back and re-read the previous enter. So it is old friend Molag speaking. Very much looking forward to seeing where this goes.

Can't be great for Sian though. Hope she does not mind being a vessel...

 

16 hours ago, HM1919 said:

That was an interesting turn of events.  After the last chapter I expected Sian to turn into a Daughter of Coldharbour or something similar. But this seems to be an order of magnitude more than just that. Sooo... Sian's "spirit" still remains somewhere in the depth of her own mind, yes? Will be interesting to see, if she will find a way to get rid of "Hunger" and get her body back. Perhaps with the help of her "otherworldly" knowledge? ? I mean: She better finds a way out of this, before "Hunger" uses her body for stuff that would make even Borkul turn a little green around the gills.

 

Speaking of Hunger: I could not help but imagine a haughty, malicious, female voice for the "narrator" of this entry. Probably because of the chocolate-thing. Sooo... A female sounding avatar of old MB... who has presumably re-shaped Sian's body to resemble Molag's own apperance as much as possible. Sounds scary. Too bad poor Sian didn't wear a pretty dress when the whole thing happend. Otherwise we would now have a manifestation of MB's dark might and majesty in a pretty summerdress with a flowerpattern. And that would be just hilarious. To me at least.:P

 

12 hours ago, Miauzi said:

 

Somehow I had to think of the creature from the "void" - which is the player's "opposite" in "Maids II - Deception".

https://www.nexusmods.com/skyrimspecialedition/mods/189


there even fits the connection to a Daedric prince - this was revealed at the very end of the plot of "Maids II".

---

A Daedric Prince does not, strictly speaking, have a pre-defined gender - they are free to choose - their form and the gender associated with it

is their free choice - for example, Mephala often appears as a "hermaphrodite".


The connection to Molag Bal makes me think of something else in female voice:

Vampirism was brought to Nirn by Bal through an act of rape and desecration.

Something is open in the "lore" -> it has a fertilization through the vaginal rape - which he carried out in human form

given to an egg of his victim? Attention - their vampirism did not set in immediately.

So there would be the possibility of a "child" being conceived - sort of a daughter or son of Bal himself.


A mod author took this idea and created a unique vampire - that of a vampire who was born as such

and not obtained the Vamiprimus through an "infection" (via bite) or the Coldharbour ritual.


Something else would also be possible on this mental platform - "hunger" would be the (so far) disembodied spirit of this generation

I'm curious as to where this story will go


PS

The "Hunger" was a recurring class of Daedric creatures in Morrowind - but unable to take on the minds of humans

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this is, indeed, my take on vampirism. like with many of the things Skyrim supplies, I've thrown away huge chunks of official lore to create my own. ;)

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I love OotS so much. I was very sad when my favorite character died.

 

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Have to note - this is the biggest flurry of comments I have seen on any chapter.

The masses are out here, hungering for more. I hope you have the next chapter "in the can", or vessel as it may be.

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Vor 25 Minuten sagte jfraser:

 

 

 

das ist in der Tat meine Einstellung zum Vampirismus. Wie bei vielen Dingen, die Skyrim liefert, habe ich riesige Teile der offiziellen Überlieferungen weggeworfen, um meine eigenen zu erstellen. ;)

I feel the same way.


When I made the above-mentioned race mod with its present my favorite character - I have quite a lot with mods about Succubi at the same time

experimented.

Over time, a kind of "mosaic" formed in my head - a kind of tradition, so to speak.

As a "side job" I try to close the various gaps in vampire lore with it.


The first "level" is basic vampirism - which you get from a bite or something like that.

You can also become ancient and very powerful with it - the mod "Better Vampire" provides plenty of skills for this.


The second "level" is then the (basic) Vampire Lord - which you get from higher Lords (Harkon) or "Daughters of Coldharbour" (Serana).

If the vampire lord of MolagBal were given himself by an act of rape - 9 out of 10 would not survive


The third tier are the "Daughters of Coldharbour" who are "spawned" by MolagBal himself.

Then what is Harkon? - A "Son of Coldharbour"?


Harkon is a vampire lord who can turn others into one - only then as a player character I can't make a human myself

or make lesser vampires a lord.

There are endless holes here.


So if it's Harkon himself making a higher (Lord form) out of a human/lower vampire through an act of humiliation/rape - how does this then make Serana "daughter of Coldharbour"?

At least not with her father's method!

Before entering the soul grave, their statements are pretty clear.


So there's definitely targeted seduction at play - which again would suit a succubus more than a vampire lord.


And this is exactly where I start my own "tradition".

lower male vampire lord form -> pure beast - unable to "elevate" others to lordship

higher male vampire lord form -> beast - that cruelly subjugates its victims

lower female vampire lord form -> pure beast - unable to "elevate" others to lordship

"Daughter of Coldharbour" -> Vampire-Succubus hybrid - who seduces his victims through erotic manipulation


As this form is unsuitable for a "Daughter of Coldharbour" in combat - Serana never sees this transformation


The mod mentioned above creates a "special" race - which has only a single member:

the natural daughter of MolagBal with Lamae Beolfag - the only being on Nirn born a vampire.

But without memories - unable to shift into a Daedric form - not outwardly recognizable as vampires.

Doesn't have to drink blood, doesn't get sun damage, etc.


How she gets her succubus second form through a game-compliant quest is still open.

So far I've always unlocked it via MCM - using "Children of Lilith" gives me a lot of freedom in design.

 

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Mir geht es ja ähnlich.

 

Als ich den oben erwähnten Rassen-Mod mit seinem Present quasi zu meinem Lieblings-Char machte - habe ich parallel ziemlich viel mit Mods über Succubi

experimentiert.

In meinem Kopf setzte sich dann mit der Zeit eine Art "Mosaik" zusammen - quasi eine eigene Art der Überlieferung.

Mit der versuche ich als "Nebenjob" die diversen Lücken im Vampire-Lore zu schliessen.

 

Die erste "Stufe" ist der einfache Vampirismus - den man durch einen Biss oder so ähnlich bekommt.

Man kann damit auch uralt und seltztlich sehr mächtig werden - der Mod "Better Vampire" liefert dazu reichlich Skills.

 

Die zweite "Stufe" ist dann der (einfache) Vampire-Lord - den man von höheren Lords (Harkon) oder "Töchtern von Kalthafen" (Serana) bekommt.

Würde der Vampire-Lord von MolagBal selbst durrch einen Akt der Vergewaltigung gegeben - würden 9 von 10 das nicht überleben

 

Die dritte Stufe sind die "Töchter von Kalthafen" die von MolagBal selbst "erzeugt" werden.

Nur was ist dann Harkon? - Ein "Sohn von Kalthafen"?

 

Harkon ist ein Vampire-Lord der andere zu einem solchen machen kann - nur kann ich dann als Spieler-Char selbst keinen Menschen

oder niederen Vampire zu einem Lord machen.

Hier sind halt Löcher ohne Ende.

 

Wenn es also Harkon selbst ist der durch einen Akt der Erniedrigung/Vergewaltigung aus einem Menschen bzw. niedrigen Vampire einen höheren (Lord-Form) macht - wie macht dies dann Serana als "Tocher von Kalthafen"?

Jedenfalls nicht mit der Methode ihres Vaters!

Vor dem Betreten des Seelengrabes sind ja ihre Aussagen ziemlich eindeutig.

 

Also ist da ehr wohl gezielte Verführung im Einsatz - was wiederum mehr zu einem Succubus als den zu einem Vampire-Lord passen würde.

 

Und genau hier setze ich meine eigene "Überlieferung" an.

niedere männliche Vampire-Lord-Form -> reine Bestie - unfähig andere zum Lord zu "erheben"

höhere männliche Vampire-Lord-Form -> Bestie - die ihre Opfer grausam unterwirft

niedere weibliche  Vampire-Lord-Form -> reine Bestie - unfähig andere zum Lord zu "erheben"

"Tochter von Kalthafen" -> Vampire-Succubus-Hybrid - der seine Opfer durch erotische Manipulation verführt

 

Da diese Form im Kampf für eine "Tochter von Kalthafen" ungeeignet ist - sieht man bei Serana nie diese Verwandlung

 

Der oben erwähnte Mod schafft eine "Sonder"-Rasse - die nur ein einziges Mitglied hat:

die natürliche Tochter von MolagBal mit Lamae Beolfag - das einzigste Wesen auf Nirn das als Vampire geboren wurde.

Aber ohne Erinnerungen - unfähig in eine daedrische Form zu wechseln - äusserlich nicht als Vampire erkennbar.

Muss kein Blut trinken, bekommt keinen Sonnenschaden usw.

 

Wie sie durch ein spiel-konformes Quest ihre Succubus-Zweitform erhält ist noch offen.

bisher schalte ich das immer via MCM frei - die Verwendung von "Kinder von Lilith" gewährt mir bei der Gestaltung sehr viel Freiheiten.

 

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5 hours ago, fred200 said:

Have to note - this is the biggest flurry of comments I have seen on any chapter.

The masses are out here, hungering for more. I hope you have the next chapter "in the can", or vessel as it may be.

I have a chapter from one (or more) of my stories per week set up until feb 16. I have lost my fire (not unexpectedly- that’s why i pushed while it burned bright) for now. it will rekindle within the next four months. That’s how my stupid brain works. ;)

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Vor 56 Minuten sagte jfraser:

Ich habe ein Kapitel aus einer (oder mehreren) meiner Geschichten pro Woche bis zum 16. Februar erstellt. Ich habe mein Feuer verloren (nicht unerwartet - deshalb habe ich gedrückt, während es hell brannte). es wird innerhalb der nächsten vier Monate wieder aufleben. So funktioniert mein dummes Gehirn. ;)

Sounds like a burnout.

Please don't take it "lightly" - I myself have been through my own (professional) burnout for 15 years

officially disabled.

And because I didn't protect myself afterwards, I ran into my 2nd burnout 5 years later - from then on I could

don't even do part-time jobs anymore.


If there should be a break now - then it's a break - PERIOD

So the "takeover" in the chapter was the emergency brake for the author in real life

ultimately solved very creatively


And it's a warning to myself:

I'm currently preparing to create my own sequel story (set in the Fallout universe).

Although a good 10 chapters are already finished textually - but because I'm also trying to deliver halfway good pictures

I've just piled up a huge mountain of work -> I need to switch everything from cbbe to fusion-girl

If I only wanted to do "female fashion show" I could stay with "cbbe" - but there are also pictures with more intimate man-woman interactions

are planned (which maybe make up 2-4% but are important)...

..Damn - why did this "Bugdestha" have to come up with the idea - to use a common selett for man and woman in Fallout 4!


It doesn't matter - this creative process for a "light novell" with pictures, which is new to me, forces me to think on at least 4-5 levels at the same time.

On the one hand, this is very interesting for me and I really like the creativity that is required for this

but I also have to slow myself down again and again - because thanks to the burnout that has already happened, my mental ability to concentrate is very limited in time.


Well - you can make something out of this huge cliff hanger:

If you have the time and desire to PLAY Skyrim again and haven't tried the Maids II - Deception mod yet...

...try it - it leads, among other things, into very interesting corners of the lore of TES and could serve as a suggestion for a possible sequel.

 

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Hört sich schon wie ein BurnOut an.

Bitte nicht auf die "leichte Schulter" nehmen - ich selbst bin durch meinen eigenen (beruflichen) BurnOut seit 15 Jahren

offiziell arbeitsunfähig.

Und weil ich mich danach nicht selbst geschützt habe lief ich 5 Jahre später in meinen 2. BurnOut - ab da konnte ich

noch nicht einmal mehr stundenweise Nebenjobs machen.

 

Wenn jetzt Pause sein soll - dann ist eben Pause - PUNKT

Also war die "Übernahme" im Kapitel die Notbremse für den Autor im realen Leben

letztlich doch sehr kreativ gelöst

 

Und es ist eine Warnung an mich selbst:

Ich bereite gerade die Erstellung einer eigenen Fortsetzungs-Geschichte (im Fallout-Universum) vor.

Zwar sind schon gut 10 Kapitel textlich fertig - aber weil ich auch betrebt bin so halbweg gute Bild mit zu liefern

habe ich mir gerade einen riesigen Berg Arbeit aufgeschüttet -> ich muss alles von Cbbe auf "fusion-girl" umstellen

wollte ich nur "weibliche Modenschau" machen könnte ich bei "cbbe" bleiben - da jedoch auch Bilder mit intimeren Mann-Frau-Interaktionen

geplant sind (die vielleicht 2-4% ausmache aber eben doch wichtig sind)...

..Mist - warum musste dieses "Bugdestha" auch auf die Idee kommen - in Fallout 4 ein gemeinsames Seklett für Mann und Frau zu verwenden!

 

Na egal - dieser für mich neue Schaffensprozess für eine "light novell" mit Bildern zwingt mich auf mindestens 4-5 Ebenen gleichzeitig zu denken.

Das ist zum einen für mich selbst hoch interessant ud ich mag die dafür notwendige Kreativität sehr

aber ich muss mich auch immer wieder einbremsen - da dank der bereits passierten BurnOut die mentale Fähigleit mich zu konzentrieren zeitlich sehr eingeschränkt ist.

 

Nun - man kann aus diesem gewaltigen Kliff-Hänger ja was machen:

Wenn Sie wieder Zeit und Lust auf das SPIELEN in Skyrim haben und noch nicht den Mod "Maids II - Täuschung" ausprobiert haben...

...versuchen Sie es mal - es führt u.a. in sehr interessante Ecken des lore von TES und könnte so Ihnen als Anregung für eine mögliche Fortsetzung dienen.

 

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7 minutes ago, Miauzi said:

Sounds like a burnout.

Please don't take it "lightly" - I myself have been through my own (professional) burnout for 15 years

officially disabled.

And because I didn't protect myself afterwards, I ran into my 2nd burnout 5 years later - from then on I could

don't even do part-time jobs anymore.


If there should be a break now - then it's a break - PERIOD

So the "takeover" in the chapter was the emergency brake for the author in real life

ultimately solved very creatively


And it's a warning to myself:

I'm currently preparing to create my own sequel story (set in the Fallout universe).

Although a good 10 chapters are already finished textually - but because I'm also trying to deliver halfway good pictures

I've just piled up a huge mountain of work -> I need to switch everything from cbbe to fusion-girl

If I only wanted to do "female fashion show" I could stay with "cbbe" - but there are also pictures with more intimate man-woman interactions

are planned (which maybe make up 2-4% but are important)...

..Damn - why did this "Bugdestha" have to come up with the idea - to use a common selett for man and woman in Fallout 4!


It doesn't matter - this creative process for a "light novell" with pictures, which is new to me, forces me to think on at least 4-5 levels at the same time.

On the one hand, this is very interesting for me and I really like the creativity that is required for this

but I also have to slow myself down again and again - because thanks to the burnout that has already happened, my mental ability to concentrate is very limited in time.


Well - you can make something out of this huge cliff hanger:

If you have the time and desire to PLAY Skyrim again and haven't tried the Maids II - Deception mod yet...

...try it - it leads, among other things, into very interesting corners of the lore of TES and could serve as a suggestion for a possible sequel.

 

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I appreciate the supportive words but it’s not really burnout. It’s just the way my brain has always worked: i get interested in something and dive deep into it until one day, out if nowhere, it just doesn’t interest me anymore and I dive into something else. It is generally cyclical- eventually the fire comes back and i dive in again. 
 

of course, knowing that people are engaged in my stories helps. I even wrote a bit today. :)
 

 

but this chapter is not a cliffhanger. Not really. I have several more Sian chapters uploaded and just waiting their turn. I think Trendil is up next week, though. 

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Interesting chapter. The transformation Sian did undergo, and your take on felt like a reinterpretation of the Succubus lore. I'm not sure the chocolate analogy was fully compatible with a medieval setting though, but it made the description understandable for us. As for Sian's spirit, we're awaiting to discover were she's currently hiding.

 

16 hours ago, jfraser said:

I have a chapter from one (or more) of my stories per week set up until feb 16. I have lost my fire (not unexpectedly- that’s why i pushed while it burned bright) for now. it will rekindle within the next four months. That’s how my stupid brain works. ;)

 

ldyMRSUy_o.png « Here -> giphy.gif

               Plus we know about Sian, we know about Vessel, but the red eyed gal very didn't say her name
                That's not polite at all, no
.:classic_sleep: »

 

On 10/13/2022 at 11:40 AM, Miauzi said:

The connection to Molag Bal makes me think of something else in female voice:

Vampirism was brought to Nirn by Bal through an act of rape and desecration.

Something is open in the "lore" -> it has a fertilization through the vaginal rape - which he carried out in human form

given to an egg of his victim? Attention - their vampirism did not set in immediately.

So there would be the possibility of a "child" being conceived - sort of a daughter or son of Bal himself.


A mod author took this idea and created a unique vampire - that of a vampire who was born as such

and not obtained the Vamiprimus through an "infection" (via bite) or the Coldharbour ritual.

The concept is interesting, though regarding an unexploited area of the lore. For my part though, I was under the impression that Bal's victims were brought either to death either to the brink of it, and that only those coming back from it did so as pure blood vampires. Hence the interval of time between the rape and the reanimation. And the undead nature of the vampire. If death is implied, then Bal shouldn't have to worry about contraception, in a way. =p

 

 

 

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Vor 13 Minuten sagte Tirloque:

Interessantes Kapitel. Die Verwandlung, die Sian durchmachte, und Ihre Einstellung fühlten sich wie eine Neuinterpretation der Succubus-Überlieferung an. Ich bin mir nicht sicher, ob die Schokoladenanalogie vollständig mit einer mittelalterlichen Umgebung kompatibel war, aber sie machte die Beschreibung für uns verständlich. Was Sians Geist betrifft, warten wir darauf, herauszufinden, wo sie sich derzeit versteckt.

 

 

ldyMRSUy_o.png« Hier -> giphy.gif

Außerdem wissen wir von Sian, wir wissen von Vessel, aber das rotäugige Mädchen hat ihren Namen nicht gesagt
Das ist überhaupt nicht höflich, nein
. :classic_sleep: »

 

Das Konzept ist interessant, obwohl es sich um einen ungenutzten Bereich der Überlieferung handelt. Ich für meinen Teil hatte jedoch den Eindruck, dass Bals Opfer entweder bis an den Rand des Todes gebracht wurden und dass nur diejenigen, die davon zurückkamen, dies als reine Blutvampire taten. Daher die Zeitspanne zwischen der Vergewaltigung und der Wiederbelebung. Und die untote Natur des Vampirs. Wenn der Tod impliziert ist, sollte sich Bal in gewisser Weise keine Sorgen um die Empfängnisverhütung machen müssen. =S

 

 

 

 

Common children of Daedra or Aedra with humans or Mer are extremely rare - mother and child die at the latest at birth - unless special circumstances arise. Other blog writers have already taken up this - e.g. @EnragedBard in "Destana is NOT the Dragonborn"


However, open positions in the lore leave you free to fill them with your own ideas or implications...

..so each of us has our very own version of Nirn

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1 hour ago, Miauzi said:

 

Common children of Daedra or Aedra with humans or Mer are extremely rare - mother and child die at the latest at birth - unless special circumstances arise. Other blog writers have already taken up this - e.g. @EnragedBard in "Destana is NOT the Dragonborn"


However, open positions in the lore leave you free to fill them with your own ideas or implications...

..so each of us has our very own version of Nirn

So that was the blog you were alluding to. Didn't follow it though (couldn't keep with the pace). Yet, interesting insight on the lore that you have here. Smiley_jap_HFR.gif

 

1 hour ago, Miauzi said:

ldyMRSUy_o.png« Hier -> giphy.gif

Außerdem wissen wir von Sian, wir wissen von Vessel, aber das rotäugige Mädchen hat ihren Namen nicht gesagt
Das ist überhaupt nicht höflich, nein
. :classic_sleep: »

ldyMRSUy_o.png « Woohoo, I'm speaking german ! I didn't even know I could !

                  I'm so intelligent even I don't know what I'm capable of, yes. :classic_cool: »

 

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3 hours ago, Tirloque said:

Interesting chapter. The transformation Sian did undergo, and your take on felt like a reinterpretation of the Succubus lore. I'm not sure the chocolate analogy was fully compatible with a medieval setting though, but it made the description understandable for us. As for Sian's spirit, we're awaiting to discover were she's currently hiding.

 

 

ldyMRSUy_o.png « Here -> giphy.gif

               Plus we know about Sian, we know about Vessel, but the red eyed gal very didn't say her name
                That's not polite at all, no
.:classic_sleep: »

 

The concept is interesting, though regarding an unexploited area of the lore. For my part though, I was under the impression that Bal's victims were brought either to death either to the brink of it, and that only those coming back from it did so as pure blood vampires. Hence the interval of time between the rape and the reanimation. And the undead nature of the vampire. If death is implied, then Bal shouldn't have to worry about contraception, in a way. =p

 

 

 

You may have picked up this story partway in. Sian is a college student from Earth who was dragged to Skyrim thanks to typo on a spell by an incompetent mage. So this dominating spirit is clicking into her Earth memories. Thus the chocolate. 

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Vor 17 Minuten sagte jfraser:

Sie haben diese Geschichte vielleicht mittendrin aufgegriffen. Sian ist ein College-Student von der Erde, der dank eines Tippfehlers eines inkompetenten Magiers nach Skyrim geschleppt wurde. Also klickt dieser dominierende Geist in ihre Erderinnerungen. Also die Schokolade. 

 

oh ha - another world walker

he "recorder" - you are not alone here

https://www.nexusmods.com/skyrimspecialedition/mods/4718

 

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11 hours ago, jfraser said:

You may have picked up this story partway in. Sian is a college student from Earth who was dragged to Skyrim thanks to typo on a spell by an incompetent mage. So this dominating spirit is clicking into her Earth memories. Thus the chocolate. 

I believe I knew that Sian was transferred from Earth. However, as the succubus spirit refers to the vessel as her main interlocutor, and then to her "former occupant" as a third party, I thought that :

  • there were three being coexisting here : the vessel, the succubus' spirit and Sian's spirit. I'm not sure if the vessel is Sian's body or not however.
  • that the locutor here was the succubus. which unlike Sian, isn't from earth. And as it's the succubus who is speaking here, that's why the chocolate analogy felt a bit anachronistic. 

Yet as I have indeed hopped in the bandwagon midway, I might've missed something indeed. :classic_tongue:

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1 hour ago, Tirloque said:

I believe I knew that Sian was transferred from Earth. However, as the succubus spirit refers to the vessel as her main interlocutor, and then to her "former occupant" as a third party, I thought that :

  • there were three being coexisting here : the vessel, the succubus' spirit and Sian's spirit. I'm not sure if the vessel is Sian's body or not however.
  • that the locutor here was the succubus. which unlike Sian, isn't from earth. And as it's the succubus who is speaking here, that's why the chocolate analogy felt a bit anachronistic. 

Yet as I have indeed hopped in the bandwagon midway, I might've missed something indeed. :classic_tongue:

 

yes, this is a tripartite arrangement. There is the invading spirit (which is more succubus than vampire, I suppose); there is Sian's consciousness, including her memories which is where the succubus is getting its understanding of chocolate; and there is Sian's physical body, aka the vessel. 

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