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Fuck you, the ghosts of the past


Evaloves4

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I planned to post this diary tomorrow but I couldn’t wait. Unexpected event heavily burdened mine and Ivy's soul.

 

Living the lifestyle as Ivy and I lived was risky and not without the consequences. The difference between then and now is that we didn’t care for anyone, but now we do. That was why my Ivy was devastated when she hurt Prince.

 

 


Wednesday morning started very well. After sending "Love you messages" to our parents, we kissed and cuddled. We thought he was in the need for sex and we were ready to fuck him, but he didn’t want sex. All he wanted is to show us how much he loves us. We were very melted. Ivy went under the shower but didn’t return to the bedroom and Prince and I stayed in the bedroom. She stayed in the living room wanting us to enjoy in each other. My Prince and I cuddled and smooched some time and then we came to the living room. Ivy was searching the Steam trying to buy “Witcher 3” for my Prince. When he told her that he doesn’t want to purchase the game over the Steam she gave up from ordering the game and she watched the trailers and pictures. She said that she would love to be Ciri and that she reminds her on her and Yen on me.
While my Prince and I enjoyed in the coffee she suddenly started to laugh very loud and very hard. When we asked her what was so funny she said:
- Princess, do you know that you are in the Witcher 3 game?
Me. Reeeaally??? I she hot??? …. Let me see her.
Then she showed me the picture of the goat whose name was Princess.
I bit her for her neck saying smilingly:
- You naughty you! Are you happy now?!
Ivy (laughing): Of course I am! (teasing my Prince) – So honey, you didn’t know you were fucking the goat all this time and you lied when you said you aren’t into bestiality?!
My Prince and I blasted in laughter. We tickled her and we had a good time laughing and teasing each other.

 

When we came to the work, my Prince got 4 new apprentices. He introduced them to the team and after the briefing, he shared the assignment to his team and he and Ivy spent the time in training new comers. He’s gonna get 2 more animators in June.
My working day was normal and my boss and I hadn’t had much work. We talked a lot about ordinary things and some business plans for the Hotel.

 

During the work Ivy and I invited Marko in Zdenka in our Hotel restaurant and we treated them with lunch when we had large break. When they arrived, they behaved as usual, as the incident never happened. Marko hugged my Prince very tight and tapped him on his back when we welcomed them. During the lunch they complimented our dish and Ivy and I were glad they loved it. My Prince didn’t look at Zdenka at all. He was probably still ashamed or he was scared of Marko’s reaction. Wanting to make him relax Zdenka said to him:
- Prince, look at me.
When he looked at her she sent him a kiss and my Prince got very red in his face. Seeing him flashing Marko blasted in laughter and hugging him with his arm he said to him:
- Haha …. Don’t worry, my son. I’m not jealous on you anymore. Zdenka and I cleared some things out and you two can tease each other. By the way, thank you for complimenting my wife as attractive and beautiful. But, you are definitely short sighted.
We all blasted in laughter. Yes, all is normal again. He was talking to Marko and Ivy and I talked to Zdenka. Marko was glad that my Prince is having sharp drink with him although my Prince said he’d have only one. She said to Ivy that she was disappointed in her for tell Marko the thigs she told her in confidence. Ivy apologized to her and asked for forgiveness. Zdenka hugged her and kissed her saying that she is forgiven but she asked her to be more discreet and careful in the future what and how she says things she hear in confidence. Ivy promised she would. We were all happy that there is no damage to their relationship. Thanks to my Prince who took the blame on himself and to my mom who criticized my dad and Marko for immature behaving.
When they left home, Ivy was incredibly happy that her relationship with her mom was as before.

 

Ivy and I wanted to make the day perfect and we proposed Prince to go out on the special supper after the work. We promised to him that we’ll behave and we won’t initiate sex in the restaurant if he doesn’t want to. He accepted. I reserved the table for three in very nice and expensive restaurant. After the work we went home and my Ivy and I dressed very sexy and yet descent. Seeing us my Prince was thrilled and he complimented our look kissing us passionately. He had erection. We had to wait until his erection goes away and we forbid him to touch us or kiss us otherwise we’d never leave home how horny he was. When we came to the restaurant my Prince again showed that he has gentlemen manners. He bought us the flowers and hold the chairs for us when we arrived at the restaurant.

 

All was fine until Tina and her lover showed up. We didn’t know they will come. They didn’t see us at first but when they sat at the table few meters away from us, they spotted us. Seeing them my Prince became very disturbed and nervous. It was the time when we waited for our meals. Ivy and I thought that he would make the scene and we were ready to react, but he wasn’t. He had hard time to control himself but he acted very maturely and with manners. I was very proud on my Prince’s reaction. He stood up while his whole body shook. Taking the deep breath, he said:
- I truly apologize for inconvenience but I kindly ask you to leave with me. I can’t be in the same place with them. If we don’t leave at once, I’m afraid that I will do something stupid and I don’t want to. I’m sorry. I will compensate to you.
Of course we respected his wish. We said that we perfectly understand. While Ivy stayed and cancelled our meals with the chef of the restaurant, my Prince and I walked out of the restaurant. We wanted to take him to some other place but he lost desire to go anywhere else but home. During the driving (Ivy was driving us home), he didn’t say a single word. He withdrew within himself. I felt very sorry for him. I could only imagine how hard was for him to see them.

 

When we came home he silently dressed off and laid in the bed. He asked us to leave him alone. Just as we closed the bedroom door, we heard him heavily sighing. He remembered all the humiliation he was put through that night. Fuck you Tina! Fuck you and fuck your lover! My Prince suffered. Although Ivy, Antonio and the guys avenged him the same night when he was raped, he didn’t have that “satisfaction”. He could barely stand that night and he felt the pain for days. My Ivy and I shared his pain. We wanted to come into the bedroom and shower him with the kisses and “love you’s”, but we respected his privacy and desire to be alone. My Ivy was very upset on Tina and her lover. She wanted to go back to the restaurant and beat them heavily and I hardly managed to talked her out of it. Fuck! Time was passing and every minute was like hour. We couldn’t wait any more. After some 20 minutes we entered into the bedroom and we saw him drugged. He took four strong sleeping pills and few appeasement pills. Damn! My poor luv. I wasn’t angry at him for over dosing but felt deep compassion for him. We both laid by him and we cuddled and kissed his face and head crying heavily. I believe that from that moment I started to hate raping and rapist strong and powerfully like he does. We slept very tight to him and holding him in our arms.

 

Yesterday morning, I woke up first and after kissing my angels I went under the shower. I made myself the coffee and I was thinking about him. I terribly missed him. Fuck you, the ghosts of the past!!! Why don’t you leave him alone?! He was cured from the consequences of the rape after talking to my mom while ago and all was fine until he saw them. Only he knows the horrors and the pain he went through that night. My poor angel. If I only could reach deep into his soul and rip that pain out. But I can’t! I can only love him and carry his burdens. And that’s what I’m gonna do as long I live.

 

He didn’t wake up at all. I checked on him and when I entered into the bedroom I saw my Ivy kissing him, hugging and sobbing saying that she loves him very much. I hardly could separate her from him. I took her to the living room and we both cried. When we calmed I asked her what she thinks about idea to go to our apartment in the villa this weekend and invite my mom with us. She is the only one who have incredible and strong power and influence on him and he always feels better after talking to her. We needed the time to be alone, out of this fucking city! My Ivy loved the idea.

 

Before I came to my work I told her to stay with him and that I will arrange everything about his and hers substitute because he’s still sleeping being drugged and he needs to stay at home with someone who loves him when he wakes up. I came to the office and I talked to my boss. I explained to him what happened in the restaurant and what my Prince did. He was very proud at him for controlling his temper and he was also sad that my Prince was emotionally down. I asked him if I can go home earlier and he let me work till 12.00 and he gave Ivy and me the day off tomorrow saying to spent with my Prince. He asked me if he and his wife may come over to villa to see him. I said that it would be nice if they could come because my Prince loves them. I also called my mom and after short explanation I asked her if she wants to spend the weekend with us in the villa. She was very concerned about Prince and she wanted to come to our house right away but I said that it isn’t so urgent and it can wait till tomorrow. She sobbed heavily and she said that she’ll be ready. I didn’t tell her that my Prince was down because of being raped but because he saw some people that he didn’t want to see at all and that was the reason why he was disturbed. I told her that I will pick her up tomorrow at 8.00. I also asked to not to say a word to dad and uncle and Marko and Zdenka. We don’t want them be worried.

 

When I came home I saw my angels sitting on the balcony although the weather was crappy. It was chilly and cloudy. Ivy was sitting in his lap and they smooched and cuddled. Ivy tried to cheer him up, but he was silent and didn’t say a word. They were both glad to see me and when I kissed my Prince I saw deep sorrow in his eyes. I don’t know why seeing Tina and her lover revived the old pain that was healed. On the other hand, I somehow believe that seeing them again was “needed” that his healing process will be completed once for all. He has to learn to keep his peace if he sees them again and he must be free from them. I trust my mom fully that she’ll do a great job talking to him.

 

Ivy and Prince retreated into the bedroom and I told them that I will join them right after I take the shower. My Prince just laid on the bed like a zombie. He was completely mind absent. He only asked us to be silent. He took sleeping pills again and he slept. He’s depressed. I had to share with you his pain, our pain and our concern for him. He is a good person and he needs support and love of all of us now.

 

Dear readers of this diary, please, write a word of encouragement to our Prince. Beside Ivy and me, he needs you too, his friends because LL is his second home. Thank you.

 

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I know how he feels, but i guess i am in worse condition than ever... But at least he is stronger than i am.

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I can't say I know how he feels, but I do know what it's like to see someone you care for go through depression. I wish I could say there are some "tricks" to get him better soon, but there are really only ways to help him get through it himself. Try to keep tabs on how much sleeping medication he is taking; an extreme lack of motivation constitutes most of depression, sleeping too much will only inhibit recovery. Furthermore, it is good to counter that lack by going out and doing stuff. An easy thing would be to just sit in a park, absorb the sun.

I wish I had some words of wisdom to shatter the fogged wall blurs Prince's outlook right now, but unfortunately such words do not exist. I will say this though, don't let hardship get the better of you, as it does not define who you are. Moments like this in life are what forge us into the people we grow to be. The question is: Will the flames melt you down? Or will you quench yourself into the the hardened steel you're meant to become?

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I can't say I know how he feels, but I do know what it's like to see someone you care for go through depression. I wish I could say there are some "tricks" to get him better soon, but there are really only ways to help him get through it himself. Try to keep tabs on how much sleeping medication he is taking; an extreme lack of motivation constitutes most of depression, sleeping too much will only inhibit recovery. Furthermore, it is good to counter that lack by going out and doing stuff. An easy thing would be to just sit in a park, absorb the sun.

I wish I had some words of wisdom to shatter the fogged wall blurs Prince's outlook right now, but unfortunately such words do not exist. I will say this though, don't let hardship get the better of you, as it does not define who you are. Moments like this in life are what forge us into the people we grow to be. The question is: Will the flames melt you down? Or will you quench yourself into the the hardened steel you're meant to become?

 

Thank you both.

 

Collygon > Thanks for a nice words. Ivy and I tried our best to help him, but we couldn't. My mom did a miracle. All is fine now. :)

 

Sorry but I didn't understand this expression of yours: "The question is: Will the flames melt you down? Or will you quench yourself into the the hardened steel you're meant to become?"

Will you be kind to explain? Thank you. :)

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