I imagine that a blog about a character called Ego should also have to be about its own creator and even if this wasn't my initial intention I kinda need to talk about this. My art is me, I am my art. We simply cannot stop coexisting.

Lately I am feeling kinda lost, I know very well this sensation... it happens that during a journey you start feeling lost even when following the main road. To people like me it happens a lot, I am stubborn and sometimes I can't accept to do things "the right way" even at my own fault. I am that kind of person that when feeling lost I stop walking because I simply don't know what to do or where to go and this is exactly what is happening to me. I feel like I'm in the middle of a desert and instead to walk for my own safety I am wandering around without a destination, I'm starting to question if I'm really moving and if moving is a good idea at all. When I meet people they are all toxic and full of spikes, I'm starting to be tired of dealing with them. I don't want to be that alone but everytime I try to change the situation I prefer the lesser of the two evils.
I hate this desert so damn much but this desert is what I am and I'm walking in it because I wanted this. Life is becoming dull and nonsense in the middle of all this sand but I can't find a way to change this, in part because I don't want.

So, speaking about deserts I wanted to try to have human interactions again. Go out and have fun you say? No, play a mmorpg! And what's better than Black Desert Online, the mmorpg that gave a face to Ego.
I played the cbt more than 2 years ago and fell in love with this game, after that I didn't buy it but I continued to follow it through friends. It unfortunately went down pretty fast, the payment model in EU and NA is absolute madness and you are pretty much forced to play a class you don't like. "You love your bow, pretty ranger? Jokes on you, I am forcing you to play with two swords now"
My character was a Sorceress, dps, fast class that can teleport for short distances, dealing damage with magic at distance or with kicks and punches in melee. Now they changed this beautiful concept with the obvious "dark girl killing stuff with a scythe". Ok.
I'm still into this and I decided to buy the game and create my character from scratch. I just began but these are the results now

I swear there's something unsettling about her face, she is making me extremely angry for some reason. Like... I want to smash a door into her face till I make her beautiful again, like in Spongebob.
Anyway, if anyone is feeling like joining me for this derpy adventure I have 9 guest passes that you can use