A 3d Trap Quest - A Search for Nirvana

[acursedsexaddict]

Hello everyone. I suffer from a severe case of sex addiction; I cannot stop thinking about it to the point that it is difficult to do anything not related to sex in some way. I used to be an old school gamer, one who would play games where you wouldn't even see a female. Now I find myself getting frustrated with the same games as they hold little merit without the promise of sex. After trying to repress it for a long period, avoiding anything pornographic and living life without appreciating the human body, I finally realized that I was being unhealthy to myself. I need to focus on what gives me pleasure, which at this point is porn. But my fantasies are not exactly normal and I have always been more of a gamer than a movie watcher, so I would rather play some game. So I am here to try to figure out a good game to suit my sexual fantasies and give me the happiness I need. I have tried looking at the mods and researching certain titles, but I find myself unsure how well things work and if they are the way I hope they are. I have run into a lot of disappointment.

 

Ideally, I would love some way to design every aspect of my face. I am very picky and tend to be a perfectionist here. I enjoyed making attractive women in 3d Sex Villa 2. I would just spend hours in the customizer, focusing on every aspect of the face and making it the way I want. I am not sure how well this translates to other games, I have heard of some sliders, but the games I have seen usually just throw you in with some stock faces. Probably not mandatory, but something I would enjoy.

 

Note I have tried certain adult games like Trap Quest that fit a lot more in the scheme I like. But the problem there is that it is all textual. I am not much of a reader, at a certain point I get frustrated with it, same reason I can't really enjoy Morrowind at all. If I could find a full-3d version of Trap Quest where I could see my character run around (with hopefully more customization options) I pretty much would have found perfection.

 

I would rather a game with some narrative or something to do. 3d Sex Villa 2 was nice when designing my character, but it got boring as soon as that got done as all I could do was have sex. This didn't really appeal to me, I would like some bigger focus around the sexual content.

 

A big part of my problem is that I am very specific in the mindset I like to play. I enjoy making a female character and then making it my goal to survive an erotic world where everything wishes to rape me. The challenge and fun comes from keeping her pure, I would enjoy something where that was hard to do. Run and Rape, a couple RPG maker games, those are the type that generally work better for me. Playing a male is unappealing, as is consensual sex.

 

I think what I enjoy more than anything is the unpredictability of rape. You don't know if you will or will not get raped and your only hope is to try to beat the opposition who wishes to make you into a sexual object as best as you can. I like chaos, not knowing what will happen, and so many games feel unappealing after a bit. Bondage being forced on me, losing fights and being made into a sex slave that needs to escape, I like things that may or may not happen with my goal being to try to avoid the situations as best as I can. As suggested, this means I rather have these things being random chance as opposed to every person. Maybe this NPC will let me turn in a quest, but he might just decide to rape me instead and leave me naked. Maybe I walked over a randomly generated trap that stripped me nude and dropped me into the middle of a large dungeon where everything wishes to rape me. Clothing damage can be exciting, but I find too many adult games just allow me to wear the clothing again magically, while I rather get it stripped off me and have to return to town in the nude (possibly this is where I get degraded in every way possible) to replace my damaged attire.  I like random conditions, ideally with scenarios having some degree of change. A rape mod might be quite appealing, but even better is a rape mod which gets me pregnant and makes me deal with a different situation.  This is the type of craziness I loved in Trap Quest and wish I could find in a 3d game.

 

My main hopes are for Oblivion and Skyrim, but I am rather pessimistic about the Elder Scrolls due to my experiences with the first three games being less than ideal. Arena and Daggerfall were nothing more than dungeon crawlers, which don't generally appeal to me. If I was to get raped in those dungeons, it might be different, I did find Lewd Labyrinth better. The incomplete nature of that game means it is hard to do much there however.  Morrowind I have a bit of a love/hate relationship with, since I can see my character run around naked and can get some basic mods, but it seems rape is impossible and everything is so predictable. Want sex? Ask a NPC to have sex. Want a BSDM dungeon? Travel to one and interact with the NPCs there. It just is very far from the "avoiding rape" mentality I like to have, instead being far too predictable. Would the later games get things locked on me that I would need a way out of? Rape with consequences? Other unpredictable and entertaining stuff for a person obsessed with finding a 3d Trap Quest?

 

I have tried several RPG maker games, not many of them offer a female protagonist that can try to avoid rape sadly. Dialog choices tend to be far too predictable and game over rapes don't generally entertain me. Violated Heroine should be up my alley, but every time I touch that game I am greeted with bugs and a NPC who gives me a bunch of money in town to the point that I get overpowered quick. I like the feeling of powerlessness, Trap Quest was originally a rogue-like and can be quite fun on the hardest difficulty just because of how overwhelming it can get. If not for the fact that it gets tiring to read constantly, I would enjoy it more, I am not much of a book person and find myself getting frustrated after trying to read a few pages (aka all Morrowind feels like).

 

The ideal game for me would be a game where everyone and everything wants to violently rape me. Things will strip me constantly, or I might even get bondage items locked on me that I need to figure out how to remove. I can't just click a button after a battle to put everything back, I need to live with the situation or find a way out of it. I can enter a town, but those have more people who want to rape, and who knows if the shopkeeper would bother selling to me when he can appreciate my body. The perfect game would be one where the entire world is essentially trying to turn me into a sex toy and where it is perhaps even highly in their favor. I am not afraid of challenge or losing most battles, if anything a game that feels too easy will get old quick, and so mods making things nigh impossible are something I might actually love.

 

Basically, I want a world where I will be seen for the weak adventurer I am and made into a sex toy. But it is not guaranteed, I have a chance to avoid it, it is just so marginally slim to be nigh impossible. Even better if the laws effect everyone. Maybe all female NPCs are raped as well, perhaps always nude and accepting of their role, to further press how this world wishes to make me. Perhaps females wearing clothing is illegal and I will have to risk everything to wear anything or face imprisonment where I will be raped repeatedly. I want scenarios where I am at the misfortune of the world and need to try my best to fight against it.

 

As far as I am aware, my best hope would be Oblivion or Skyrim. Skyrim in particular I do not trust, another fetish I have is being bottomless, and Skyrim treats everything as one outfit. I can't remove a top without removing a bottom apparently, which bugs me. I have no personal experience with either game; is there a way to separate tops and bottoms in Skyrim? Maybe the guards would be fine with me wearing a top as long as my lower holes are exposed to public view.

 

Oblivion sounds more ideal... but I need some sort of confirmation one way or the other. I feel too demoralized to attempt such a game and find it to be lacking. I hope the above described the mindset I am looking for and what the ideal game would be like. Hopefully it isn't just a pipe dream.

 

I am asking here in the event that there is some other game that might suit me better. I just am looking for some game to fulfill my fantasies while not requiring me to read so much due to my aversion to it. I know text will always be easier than making these things happen visually. One more reason I fear what I ask is impossible. Second Life did relatively well, except for the reliance on other people, which was unappealing since the world is essentially dead and nobody really bothers with each other. Most people there also have problems with rape, they want consensual and with both parties trying to roleplay up a scene to get raped, while I want more of it being something I can try to challenge myself to try avoiding. I also am having a lot of internet trouble, so I would find a better ideal in a Singleplayer title, possibly one with a lot of adult mods.

 

I have heard things about The Sims, but from experience with The Sims 1, there is little to do but make a house. There is no real fun in avoiding rape there; the game is too far away from such a design to offer such things.

 

So, here I am, asking in the hopes that I am not dreaming for things that cannot be or getting my hopes up for games that would never offer what I want. Is Oblivion the 3d Trap Quest I have been seeking? Or would there be another game that would work good in that role, adult or modded?

 

Thank you for reading all of this. I get very talkative and tend to ramble. I am sorry for making a book when I specifically talk about how I hate books.

[Meme8000]

Please I want this as well...

[Danopeline]

Your game does not exist. I'd wager that you can come fairly close with enough dedication tho. Old skyrim with Requium, sexlab, bestiality related mods, slavery/imprisonment and some decent armor mods could get you in the right direction. It will take some real work to get everything playing nicely.

 

Alternatively you could start making it yourself.