Anyway, I feel lewd so Ill share my Christmas miracle here!

First of all happy late Christmas ❤️ Im not a huge Christmas enthusiast, and I probably never will be.

Basically I was gaming all day, had dinner with my mom and watched movies on Netflix with someone on Discord. I made the mistake of drinking a energy drink at like 2 am, and couldnt sleep. Duh.

So I chat up some people, including my neighbour and she invited me over for a quick hot chocolate. The way I understand it she couldnt sleep either because of her legs hurting. She was clearly drunk, but not uncomfortably densed, if that makes sense. So we sat there, chat a little (note I was wearing only pijamas and a pullover) and enjoying hot chocolate and some snacks.

The whole situation turned really flirty, we both love dirty jokes and innuendos so it could have only been a matter of time till the hot chocolate wasnt the only thing steaming (har har). We ended up talking about things we like and kinks. That turned into a "love confession".

I put that in caps because we were mainly talking about how we are into/(hot for) each other. Fast forward ten minutes we were cuddling, she kissed my head at some point. I had to leave eventually, if I slept there my mum would have freaked out not knowing where I was. At the door we had a deep kiss, not a quick goodbie kiss, but a REAL kiss.

I am reeeally confused now because I dont know if it was the alcohol she had and Im scared to chat with her. She maybe doesnt even remember IDK.

So yeah thats it. Getting this off my chest feels good, actually. Have a nice rest-holiday everyone

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Back in highschool I never participated in any... how should I call it, "teenie-typical behaviour"? Going out late at night, smoking weed on classtrips etc. Looking back I missed out on alot of stuff where some might say "Oh my highschool times were wild, we used to spraypaint the toilets and drink vodka during class!". 

The only thing that ever came close to that was a lost bet between me and my two best friends, which was one of the most embarassing things that happened to me so far.

The bet itself was pretty trivial, compared to what they made me do; basically a spontanious competition in a math homework. During a free lesson I challanged them that I could do it faster than the two combined, and guess what: I lost.

There weren't any conditions or terms as to who will get what when they lose/win, "you'll just think of something afterwards". Anyway they very quickly decided that I should keep a toy inside of me during a exam. Lewd me of course denied it at first, but that actually did sound very exciting. So naturally I agreed.

Fast forward a week, a Spanish exam came up. Now, everyone kinda knew that I sucked at Spanish so much, I never in three years of classes managed to properly introduce myself. So, I was programmed to fail the exam no matter how much they sticked into me. I was mad, but atleast I had something to pay attention to, instead of writing my name on it and sleeping through the whole exam.

So right before the exam I went to the restrooms, to insert a "bullet vibrator" which looked like a lipstick. They actually went out of their way to order that thing for this one occasion, I got to keep it of course (my first real toy, lucky me). It had a few different intensities, I just had to make sure you wouldn't hear the vibration in a dead silent room full of people.

So there I was, sitting at my desk "writing" a Sapanish exam with a vibrator up my vag. Appart from some heavy breathing as well as a little twisting and turning on my chair I did a pretty good job at hiding that I felt like im about to explode! The whole exam was about 130 minutes, but luckily I could go after 90 minutes. I remember those 90 minutes flying by so fast. I could only focus on that thing between my legs, it got really intense for the first 30 minutes or so, after that I got more and more used to it up to a point where I could barely feel it.

Long story short, that was the fastes, most pleasing and most embarassing exam I ever took, especially for me being a huge introvert and all.

Would I recomend it? Absolutely!

Would I do it again? Probably not. Just maybe~

Threesomes are hawt. End of discussion? Certainly not.

You see, it all comes down to why you do it. Let's imagine a classic scenario: A couple want's to spice (POWEEEER) up their sexlife. That could mean two extreme things really, either they are bored of each other, OR they just have a healthy relationship. Whenever i read or see that kinda stuff, I always wonder what led a couple to this point. I myself tend to overthink shit, I'd be pretty scared if my partner would suggest finding someone else to join in.

I'd also pay too much attention on my partner, instead of focusing to enjoy it. Do they like it? Who do they like more? Why do they look at the other person like that? Overanalizing in the worst possible scenario. Maybe, deep down I'm not comfy with it.

HOWEVER, I'm a big fan of polygamy. I like to imagine that such arrangements happen out of sexual relationships with multiple people. And that's the scary part: going into a threesome with the intention to fall in love with someone else. I like to believe that consentual sex is alway connected to feelings. Maybe not love, but something that grows into such.

So in conclusion, having sex with a third partner isn't wrong. Infact, I think its extremely healthy! You literally get to see your loved one in a new light, while making new experiences on the go yourself. Just pay attention to your partner, they might think you are bored of them at some point.

I gave this quite alot of thought, ya know? So, lets vent a little:

I am attracted to my sister.

That looks easy to say, but like many things in life there is more to it. A simple 'I love you' could never possibly come close to express how that feels.

I know that I think different from people that I hold dear, I always have. 'Weird' would be no exaggeration to describe how I am. I know I know, typical r/ImNotLikeOtherGirls. Don't worry, there is a treat for y'all at the end of my post ❤️

Anyway, the ONLY person in my real life who always listened but never judged is my sister. Sure, my mom is cool too, but i can't show her the Olga Discordia figure that I wanna buy, can I?? We are family, yet the relationship to my mother is much more different than to my sister. I doubt, that thats the case only for me. My sister is like a sanctuary, a safe space if you will.

I don't think that being attracted to those traits is a nono, even if its my own sister. You would wan't your partner to be a safespace, no? Someone you can relax at and with. I think that that is the reason why I am pretty attracted to women in general.

Now, let's talk about incest in general.

As you might have figured, I have 0 issues with special feelings among family members. I don't wanna get into all the psychological theories, such as the Oedipus Complex, to explain that to a extend its natural to be attracted to some of your family members. The only problem I see with incest is having children with someone of your genes. Simple genetics PROVE, that 'combining' genes that are alike, daughter and father for example, will very likely result in defects in the childs DNA. I don't think that thats a fair risk to you, your partner and the child.

Whew, quite alot, I know. You might be wondering why I tagged this as mother/daughter. Remember the treat I told you about? If so, then thanks for reading my thoughts!

Here is a short comic that I found, which happens to be the trigger for expressing a few views here.

I love having those kinda dreams tho, even if it's just for a few seconds! I remember when I had a huge crush on a girl in highschool, and one night I got to kiss her in my dream. That was a f-ing mood booster! It wasn't much really, but her lips were so soft... 

Conclusion: Wet dreams are a curse AND a blessing (*´ω｀*)

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