When soul is broken …
Waiting for my luvs to come home yesterday after the work, I made the lunch, went to swim on our beach and listening the soft jazz instrumental I was thinking about my Prince. It’s simply unbelievable what he is going through. I became very emotional when thinking that he will be all alone if he wouldn’t have us, our parents and boss and his wife. I started to cry. I wished he was near me in that moment so I can hold him and kiss him and say how much I love him. Some time soon I had a need for “dose” and I went to the bedroom and I pleased myself with my toys. Then I washed them and I took a long shower. My loves came home very soon after that and I jumped into his arms wrapping my legs around his hips and arms around his neck and I showered him with kisses. My Ivy didn’t resent me for not kissing them both in the same time for she knew what I was doing and why. You see, after the unpleasant encounter with his younger uncle and the phone call from his mother, my Prince withdrew within himself and the sadness that was eating him inside was visible on his face. My Ivy confirmed me that he was doing his job spotlessly but people noticed that he is very quiet, more the usually for he always laughed or smiled or he socialized with others. He was very cheerful unlike these days. So, my Ivy explained to their friends and colleagues what is eating him sending them circular SMS and asking them not to ask him questions.
Having ruined relationship with his mother and younger uncle isn’t something that my Prince takes easily. He is not conflicted person who doesn’t care if he has good or bad relationship with his blood relatives. But he is also very principal, I would say, slave of his principles that he can’t let injustice go like nothing happened. I took the shower with my luvs and we fucked, but my Prince, although present with body, was absent by mind. And something happened for the first time in Ivy’s and mine life: we couldn’t continue to fuck. We lost desire although we were very aroused. My Prince said to us that he is sorry and he silently left the house to our beach. He jumped into the sea and swam very far from the shore. My Ivy and I felt his pain and we sobbed quietly while watching him swimming. Our parents arrived for the soccer match Croatia vs Argentina. Dads watched the game while we were on the beach with our moms. We told them about Prince’s sadness and our moms cried with us. Suddenly it started to rain and it was very windy, but my Prince didn’t come out of water. Our moms wanted us to return to the house because it was storm but we didn’t want to. We waited until he came out of the water. When he did it we hugged him and kissed him and then we returned home. He took quick shower we exercised in silence and he and Ivy practiced martial arts separately. Our moms just observed and looked at him compassionately. Then he withdrew on the balcony, took the sleeping pill and he slept. Our parents went home after the match. My Ivy and I showered our Prince with kisses and “love yous” before we slept.
This day was like few last days. Silence and sadness. My Ivy thought she would cheer him up saying that she has new idea for new Skyrim lesson episode, and although she was sitting in his lap while she was taking screenshots, he wasn’t involved into the episode making at all. I helped her with English and she posted using his account. He skipped his morning routine. He was absent in spirit and mind and his soul was broken. We didn’t know what to do and how to help him. When our parents arrived for morning coffee they tried to talk to him but, he just said he can’t talk, he softly apologized and went to the bedroom to dress up for journey to Pola with boss. We hopped that the things will be better when they return, but unfortunately they weren’t. Before they left we kissed him and said we love him. My Ivy and I were both sad the whole day although we did our jobs professionally. My boss and him returned home around 19:00. We were all over my Prince with kisses and hugs although he returned the same to us, we saw deep sadness in his eyes. He went under the shower and straight to the bed. He didn’t even do his evening routine.
Ivy and I talked to the boss in the meantime who said that he has no complain on him on both meetings and that he did his job spotlessly but he was mind absent, didn’t want to talk to him, and didn’t eat at all. He told us that he had wet eyes most of the time and he sobbed quietly. Boss didn’t force any conversation although he offered his help. We told him what we think it is happening; that the encounter with his younger uncle probably woke up some painful memories on injustice done to his dad and how much he suffered because of his illness. His mother also “added oil on the fire” inviting him on her wedding without us. Boss was very upset and worried and he said that we must call him if his condition/depression gets worse. My Ivy and I exercised after he left and she practiced martial arts. After that we had sex under the shower and she joined to my Prince in the bed kissing him and cuddling him while I took my laptop and wrote this diary to get off the chest the burden we have for my luv. I know he will recover for he is strong. I just wish he doesn’t have go through all this pain and the demons of the past that chasing him on one or another way.
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