Suddenly my home looked ghostly, unpleasant... I went to my room, laid on my bed and felt its coldness and emptiness. Nothing was the same. I looked at my hands... they were slightly red and shaking.. but I didn't feel any pain. The only pain I felt was the one in my soul.
Spent some time on LL and listen some romantic songs. Late afternoon I was having the coffee with my uncle. We were sitting in the balcony like two strangers, each of us in own thoughts.
Uncle: I already missing my angel.....
Me: you are missing her and I'm dying for her.....
Uncle: now now kiddo, don't be so dramatic. Love can be painful but you will see her tomorrow again..... and you' le be fine......
I know my uncle wanted to comfort me but I couldn't listen to him, he annoyed me.

I impulsively stood up and went out. Came to the beach where we made love yesterday morning. I could almost see us, our wrapped bodies giving our souls o each other. I set to that spot and cried. After some time I returned home. Then I saw 5 missed calls and 5 messages. All of them were from Eva. I wanted to call her but I couldn't. I knew if I would hear her voice, I'd cry. I laid on my bed having no desire for anything. "Simply the best" played 3 more times but I couldn't answer the phone. I was laying like this for long time. Somewhere around 19.00 my uncle was knocking on the door of my room.
Uncle: kiddo, hey kiddo come out..... please.....
I dint' want to get out... I had no will and strength to speak with him. But he was persistent until I left my room. He invited me to sit at the balcony with him.
Uncle: kiddo... listen.......
Me (interrupting him): Sorry uncle, but I'm not interesting in whatever you have to say.
Uncle: OK.. as you wish.. but will say this anyway......... The world will not fall apart because of you being miserable, but you will. Sadness and self-pity will eat you within until you make something very stupid that you will regret later......Put yourself together.......
I didn't answer to him but I knew he was right.

We were sitting on the balcony for some time when he retreated to his room wishing me good night. Thinking of going to my empty room without Eva filled my heart with enormous anger. No, I will not go to that fucking stupid room. I hate it. Although I don't drink, this time I took a big glass of domestic plumb brandy and drank it in one sip. I thought my throat and mouth will burn out. "Simply the best" played one more time and I got pissed off saying aloud: FUCK YOU.. FUCK YOU.... AND SHUT UP, YOU FUCKING STUPID PHONE!!!

I sobbed and looked at the sky and said: god, I hate love, I sooo hate love..... I hate everything about love.....

Do you hate me too? - said very familiar voice.
I turned my head and I saw Eva.
EVAAAAAAAAA!!! MY LOVE!!!!!!!! -I jumped from the chair and shouted from the depths of my lungs. We hugged and kissed and cried and sobbed and "love you" numerous times until I noticed tall figure standing in the middle of our living room. It was Livio, Eva's father. I quickly calmed down I said: Good evening Mr. Livio.

Livio had very serious face: hmmmmmm.... good evening.....
Just as I wanted to offer the sit to him he said: Listen to me boy... I don't know what you did to my daughter that she went crazy about you..........but If I have to come in the middle of the night again because of her, I will kick your ass.
Eva (smiling): Don't mind him honey..... he's just pretending he's rough......

Hearing the noise, my uncle came to the living room. Seeing Eva he said: Angeeeeel....... so good......
Then he realized that tall man standing in the room and hi said: uh pardon me Sir......... (offering his had for hand shake).....I'm Mathias's uncle. Please take a seat.
Livio: Thank you, but I'm on my way..... It's late and I need to go home.... have some obligations tomorrow...... Mathias....... she is your "burden" now...... I had enough sobbing, crying and moaning for the rest of my life...... First her mother cried for days because of Eva...... When Eva came home, she stopped, but this one cried for hours because of you...........Then both of them cried because of you........ I couldn't it stand any more.......... I had to drive her back or drown myself in the sea.
We all laughed and before he left, he hugged Eva and shaking my hand he said:
- you are all right.....son ........ take care for my Eva...... see you soon...........
We escorted him to the elevator and when he left Eva and I were smooching, hugging, cuddling saying numerous of "Love you" to each other. When entered in the apartment, we completely forgot on my uncle but we went to our room and made love long and passionate.

Laying next to each other and holding hands, Eva said:
- why didn't you answer my calls and my messages?
Me: I'm sorry honey, but I couldn't..... I was already very miserable without you...... hearing your voice again would just make me more miserable....
Eva: aaaawwwwww, my love...... I soooo missed you too.
Me: How come you returned?
Eva (sighing): When I came home mom was so happy to see me and she started to cry because of being happy. When we entered in my room she said:
- my dear child, I so missed you.
Eva: I missed you too, mom.
Nada: How is Mathis and his uncle?
Eva: When she mentioned you name, I hugged her and said: Mama, I love him so much.... He is everything to me......
My mom taped me gently and she said: I know my dear..... I know...... I'm sure he feels the same for you.........
Eva: Oh...mom....... he is crazy for me........ he adores me..........(my mom started to sob)
Then she stood up and said: I'll leave you now so you can unpack your things..... see you later my child.
When she left my room, I started to unpack but I couldn't...... When I was thinking about you..... I stared to cry and moan like I was dying in pains...... Hearing me, my father entered into my room saying: "My god, will this ever stop..... Eva... for goodness sake stop wiping....."
Eva: I can't dad... I can't...... I love him..... I miss him.......
I calmed down after some time and continued to unpack my things......Then I went to the living room and I saw my mom preparing the lunch...... I offered her my help but she didn't accept it.......I set in the living room and I couldn't do anything but thinking abut you.... Then I took a long walk along the sea......I was thinking how much I already miss you and uncle... When I returned home, mom was waiting for me with lunch but I couldn't eat. I went to my room and laid on my bed. Then I remembered how hard we laughed and rolled all over my bed imagining my father's face if he did caught us in sex.... I remembered your words how much You love me.... I started to cry again... Then I tried to call you but you didn't answered my calls...... I sent you messages but you didn't answer them either......... I cried again because of you, my love..........I knew it must be difficult for you too......My mom heard me and when she came in my room and we cried together. Then she told me:
Nada: my child........you really love him don't you?
Eva: Oh, mom... I will die without him.......... but he doesn't reply my calls and my messages... and I know he is suffering too....... mom...... I'm worried about him
Nada: Eva......... Although I'm happy you're home again........ I want you to return to him........ I can't see you like this......
Eva: But mom, you were sad because I went.......
Nada: I was, but now it is different my child..... When you left last time, you left in quarrel with your father and he expelled you........Now I'm sad because you two suffer without each other...........and it pains me much more ........I want you to go back to him........
Eva: Mom....... are you sure........?
Nada: Very sure my dear........ pack your things and I will tell Livio to drive you back to Rijeka.
Eva: I hugged my mom and thanked her... Then I started to pack again..... when I was ready, I came to the living room and heard my father telling to mom:
- NO and NO!!! Will you two stop making the fool of me?! First you want her back, now she's back and you want her away!!! This is insane..... can't you make up your mind?!?!
Nada (shouting at him): THE CHILDREN LOVES EACH OTHER LIVIOOO!!! DON'T YOU SEE YOUR DAUGHTER IS SUFFERING!!! HOW CAN YOU BE SO HEARTLESS?! I THOUGHT YOU WANT THE BEST FOR HER?!?!
Eva: I interrupted them saying: It's OK mom.... I'll take the bus.
Livio: You will go nowhere Eva, you are home now, and here you'll stay!!!
Eva: NO, dad, I'm going back to Mathias.
Livio (shouting): MATHIAS?!?!? MATHIAS?!?!?!! What is so special about Mathias?!?!?!?
Eva (shouting): I LOVE HIM DAD!!!! THAT'S SO SPECIAL ABOUT MATHIAS!!! I LOOOOOVE HIM!!!!! ........I don't want to live without him and you can only stop me if you restrain me from not going to him by tying me to the tree!!!
Then my dad went out of the house very angry..... Mom hugged me and we cried......After some time my father returned and calmly said:
- Eva.... I see you love him very much...... At first I thought he is like one of your ex's, but when your mother told me what he's done for you and now, when you so determinatively stood up against me, I see that you two are really in love...... All I wanted is to protect you .... Come here.
Eva: I stood up and approached him and he hugged me and said: I'm sorry for yelling at you my dear...... If you are ready ....we can go....... I will take you to him.....
Eva: When my mom heard that, she sobbed and said: Oooh Liviooooooo, thank you, my dear...
My dad sighed: Oh.. no more tears...... pleaseee
And here I am........ (smiling)

Me: I'm so happy my love..... thank you coming back......
Eva: No, honey, thank you for receiving me back
Me: Honey, I couldn't receive you back, if you didn't came back
Eva: Honey, I couldn't came back without knowing you wanted me back
Me: Honey, I wouldn't know if you'd..........
(we blasted in laughter)