> I won't lie: I am still a vain person. I like to be in the focus, I like to be wanted, lusted after, and adored and it hurts me when people abandon me for I (unwillingly) hurt them or disappoint them, both, here, on LL, and in real life. But I fight my hunger for vanity. I am in much better condition now than I was a few years ago. My luvs are with me and they have been very patient with me. I truly hope I will be vain no more in the near future. Just need more time. Why am I telling you this? Because I love LL and I care for you, guys. Therefore, if someone is disappointed in me for whatever reason, I am sorry and I apologize. I didn't want to hurt anyone. I had to tell you this. Now I can go back to sleep with my luvs.