The latest drama regarding locking my thread hit me very hard, especially because I loved that thread very much. I was very pissed off, but no, I wasn’t bitching in the family. I was nervous, I easily exploded when things went bad, but I didn’t reflect my inner condition on my luvs, children and family members. Everyone noticed my tension, and they asked me if I want to talk about it. I thanked them but I told them I don’t want to talk to none of them about it, not even with my Fran, but my luvs. (They wouldn't understand and accept my membership in LL, except my Fran whom I didn't want to involve in my problems with LL this time). But, they didn’t want to talk about it. They knew why I was tensed and before I said anything, my Prince said to me:
- I love you very much but don’t want to hear anything related to LL, Princess. We talked about it so many times without results. You are irreparably stubborn when it comes to LL and I don’t see a purpose of talking about it again. If Ivy wants to talk to you about it, fine, but keep ME out of it.
My Ivy kissed me and said:
- I agree with him. Not interested to talk about LL.
I didn’t like their reaction and I was pushy. Both of them asked me kindly but seriously to stop before I go too far and say things I don’t mean and which I may regret later. I simply couldn’t stop insisting on talking to me. I wanted them to hear me out. I wanted them to take my side and bear my burden with me. I “provoked” them with various statements. I knew he would hate following statement, but it was stronger than me. I said: “I thought we so love each other that we always talk about what pains us.” My Prince went mad. He hates when I unreasonably, groundlessly and purposely hurt him, questioning his love for me (and my Ivy). I didn’t do it very long time, until now. He started to yell at me and to swear. No, he didn’t call me names but he swore LL, my insanity, stupidity, stubbornness and just name it. When he is yelling and swearing at my Ivy and me, I know he is extremely angry and it is impossible to reason with him. Thank heavens our children weren’t nearby to hear it and to see it. His heavy words hurt me very much although I knew he didn’t mean what he said and that in essence, he loves me very much. I started to cry and my Ivy felt sorry for me. She tried to calm him, but being unsuccessful, she started comfort me. My Prince was soooo angry that he left the house slamming the entrance door hard …. It was my fault. Not his. I am the one who provoked him pushing the things to the end. I am a person who either win or lose. I mostly win, but I lost this time. I couldn’t stop crying while my Ivy held me in her arms and cuddled my head shushing me gently.
We tried to call him. He didn’t respond to our calls. My Ivy was little bit tensed and she seriously told me:
- Princess, you must stop pushing things. I can handle your “insanity”. I used to endure it. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be with you all this years …. But honey ….. You might chase our husband away …. He loves us, but if you keep going like this, he might leave us for good one day ….. Don’t you see what are you doing to him?!
Oh my, hearing this frightening, but reasonable words, I blasted in very heavy cry. I can’t and I don’t want to imagine our lives without him. It is not an option. Not even as a thought. My face and eyes were very swollen from crying. Then, he returned home.
He was carrying two big bouquets of flowers, for my Ivy and me and our favorite chocolate. Seeing him, I rushed toward him and wrapping my hands around his neck, my legs around his hips, I showered his face with kisses, “I’m very sorry” and “I love you”. He kissed me and “I love you” back apologizing for harsh words and swears he addressed to me. I asked him to forgive me and begged him to never leave my Ivy and me because of my bad character. You know what he said to me?
Prince: Leave you?! NEVER!!! How can I live without my crazy witches …… (My Ivy and I giggled and we both showered him with kisses) …. Eva, seriously, you hurt me many times and in many ways, but I would never leave you. I love you regardless of your hard character …
I didn’t let him finish his thought. I was sooo happy he loves me as I am that I stuck my tongue into his mouth and my Ivy and I fucked him sooooo good on the living room floor that he barely stood up and walked toward the bathroom to take a shower afterwards. My goodness, I was such a pain in the ass to my luvs, but their true love overcame and ignored my mischief.
Edited by Evaloves4