Isolated?!
While I argued with some LL trolls last time, my Prince and Ivy came to my table, asked me to move away from it, and checking me on LL, they caught me in a verbal rampage. I am tempted to say now a lot about some LL members’ bias based on same nationality, similar mod liking (rape, women humiliation and similar shit) and on gender (males), about male chauvinism and sexism, but I won't. I was already described as broken record. Whatever. I will not be quiet about things everyone sees but don’t react, except few individuals whom I regard and respect a lot. Ashal or moderators are the only competent to shut me up. Anyway, my luvs requested me to log off immediately and they forbid me to log in LL for two weeks for breaking the promise that I will not quarrel and insult people regardless of being trolled. I didn’t like it, but I didn’t complain either. I was guilty. They let me write a few quick PMs later and that was it. Again, regardless of often attack on me on LL, I still love this site and some people here. They are my virtual family and friends.
There was new snow in the place we went last time. So the children were incredibly happy when we took them there to play. And of course, my Prince had to run around with them, pull them on a snow sled and wrestle with them in the snow. Playing in the snow had a price: they caught the cold and started to cough and sneeze and had a temperature when we returned home. My mom gladly nursed them. There is no better person for that than her. She treated them with natural and homemade medicine she prepares by herself and with the help of her herbalist friends. The whole house smelled nicely on various herbs. We know its efficiency since she treated us with it when we got a cold or a flu. My mom and my Prince were there 24h a day for our children. My Ivy and I also wanted to be involved and help but they didn’t let us saying there is no need. We visited children only when they asked for us or when we wanted to kiss them and hug them. He didn’t go to the work yesterday. He was very caring father: carrying them in his arms, whipping their noses, cleaning their faces, feeding them, giving them teas to drink, kissing them, comforting them when they were in pain crying and telling them that we love them very much. Nobody was important to him the last three days, but them. He was available to my Ivy and me only when we needed our “dose” and when we were doing our morning and evening routine. They feel better now.
Anyway, last night, after excellent sex, when we were laying in the bed in our sleeping position, I tried my luck and I asked them:
- Just like you two who can’t stand injustice, and have to react, I have my thing too: I can’t stand LL idiots and trolls. I simply must react …. I miss LL …. Would you two consider reducing my punishment if I really, and I mean, really really try to behave and do not react on provocations of any kind at all?
I heard my Ivy’s discontent sighing while my Prince was silent. Then he quietly said to me:
- I knew you’ll ask us that …. Restrictions and punishments should help you to change, but it obviously doesn’t work in your case since you're making excuses using our problem to justify yours, which is not nice thing to do, Princess ….. As for me, from now on, do whatever you want since there is no progress. But, know one thing: I love you, but I will not let you rampage in our house and mistreat us or our children as you do on LL. If you do that, you will be asked to move to your parents until you overcome it. If you disobey me, Ivy and I will take the children and go to dad Boss and Zdenka’s house until you come to common senses. This is my final word.
I was shocked. My Ivy kissed him and leaning over him, she kissed me too and said to me:
- I agree with him. We love you, but honey, if you behave as he says, we will isolate you. Unlike you, we never stressed out our tensions and frustrations on you and our children, and we never will. Your emotional "craziness" and mischief must stop. Our home is safe place for our children and us, and it shall stay like that. So, you better watch your step.
Their words were like strong slap on my face, but their arguments were valid, and I agreed with them because I know they told me that because they love me and they want us to be whole as a family. I am emotional and impulsive person, but I am not that fool to put myself in the isolation because of letting few idiots to provoke me. My family shouldn't suffer because of me. I just have to be strong enough to endure it all.
Edited by Evaloves4
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