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LL – our stumbling-stone


Evaloves4

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It started (yesterday) when my Prince and Ivy read some blog entries. My Ivy felt strong desire to make some stories. Since she and my Prince doesn’t play computer games, she came to idea to use other author’s Skyrim characters and make her own story that involves Stranger. I was thrilled with her idea but my Prince wasn’t. He told her that he is afraid that she might become addicted to LL and fall into the trap of neglecting family being occupied with making stories for her blog just as they were before. Therefore he won’t help her. I disagreed and I supported my Ivy saying that he is exaggerating. I told her that I will help her with everything.

When she finished her introductory story we published it and when we continued to work on the first episode because she felt inspired, my Prince asked us to go with him and children to the nearest park. Mikey wanted us to join them. Since we were in the middle of making her story we said we can’t go now. He was very disappointed and he said:

- Just as I thought it’s gonna be…

His saying made me very angry and I said to him:

- Don’t you think you are overreacting, honey?! The children won’t die or be unhappy for whole life because we didn’t join them now!

Oh, my, my words hurt him a lot. He said to me very sharply:

- You say it now and never again, Eva! I know very well where this is going. If LL is your priority over our children, you are pathetic and you have to learn a lot about parenting! …….. I was addicted to LL before you even knew it exist. You just proved me that it is a time for me to leave LL. Therefore, you two are forbidden to use my LL account. If Ivy wants to make her stories I will give her my blog titles if it is possible but she must use yours or make her own account! …. I’m warning you both: if LL or anything else is taking your time from being with me and our children, you will not have me as your husband and I would rather sleep in children’s room than share the bed with you! Mark my words: Whatever you sow now, you will harvest once in the future!

 

 

He wrote short farewell post. Since it was grammatically incorrect and very angrily, I told him that I will do it in his name. He thanked me and left with Silvano and our children. I did what I said I would and I post it. Just as I finished my Ivy told me that he was right. She asked me to delete her story and to erase her name from Prince’s “Good bye” post. I tried everything to convince her to stay but when she told me: “I would rather have my husband with me then all LL praises and likes! Besides, I loved to make stories with him. I have no joy of doing it without him.” I knew she was serious about quitting. She kissed me and she called my Prince asking him where they are for she wants to join them.

 

 

I stayed home doing all the changes on his account. Then I started to think about the incident. He surely exaggerate about certain things, but on the other hand, he was right. Since our children’s birth LL became a stumbling rock in our marriage and all he wants from us is to put our family on the first place. I thought I am strong and I that can prevail LL addiction. But being honest to myself, I was weak and addicted. I caught myself logging to LL when being on the work lying to myself that I’m not that busy while I was delaying things for later or transferring my jobs to my Fran and Lidija. Yes, my Prince knows himself and us more than we think he does. Knowing that he is weak too, he rather didn’t come to LL.

 

 

When they returned home, our children ran to me happily shouting “Mammaaaaaa!!!” I kissed them, my Ivy and my Prince who was still angry at me. I told him that I corrected his farewell post and published it. He thanked me again. When I asked him: “Do you want me to do the same with my LL account?” he replied:

- I know how much you love LL and your diaries. I have no right to do that. It’s up to you …… All I want you to put us before everything and everyone, because only than we can have happy marriage and strong family.

I pinched him for his butt saying that he is right and it is what I will do. The three of us had marvelous sex when children slept.

 

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Confession: I caused all this mess. My Prince and Ivy both told me today that I was very pushy and that it provoked him. Her too but she didn't want to hurt me because I was already in "war" with my Prince. I still have to learn to not to be aggressive in things I like just as he doesn't force his will on my Ivy and me. Well, LL, I am sorry for making you loose one good member.

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IMO that incident is only the tip of the iceberg. Prince stated completely different reasons from a brash decision in his farewell entry. His desire not to invest time in Skyrim and LL isn't new, and is deep. There were some good sides here, but not enough to overcome that now that you have a growing family.

 

Now, extreme decisions and proud attitude are a part of him, you won't change that. And he indeed exaggerated a bit. Yet, taking time for LL without infringing on the family one would be possible, but isn't what happened in the very example. Part of why, personally, I a somewhat afraid of getting a family. 

Yet, in the end, a family would be of more value than an LL life. Value what you have, Eva, lot of people would envy it. :classic_smile:

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9 hours ago, Tirloque said:

IMO that incident is only the tip of the iceberg. Prince stated completely different reasons from a brash decision in his farewell entry. His desire not to invest time in Skyrim and LL isn't new, and is deep. There were some good sides here, but not enough to overcome that now that you have a growing family.

 

Now, extreme decisions and proud attitude are a part of him, you won't change that. And he indeed exaggerated a bit. Yet, taking time for LL without infringing on the family one would be possible, but isn't what happened in the very example. Part of why, personally, I a somewhat afraid of getting a family. 

Yet, in the end, a family would be of more value than an LL life. Value what you have, Eva, lot of people would envy it. :classic_smile:

 

> Thank you very much on your observation. Indeed, my Prince is very extreme person and very unique. I believe I mentioned it several times in my diaries. But I still love him with all my being. You see, the three of us loves our children very much, but he loves them the way my Ivy and I can never love them; just as she extremely loves him, my Prince extremely loves our children. That is not the problem. The problem is that he expect us to love our children the way he loves them and that is not possible. We love our children differently and they feels that and they knows that.

 

> Saying that he didn't come to LL often because he was afraid that he will be addicted to it again is also true, but it is not the primary reason why he quit. It is how I see it. He was stretched between his promise to his father and giving all of him to us, his family. That promise burdened him and pressed him for a long time. That struggle is finally over. And at some point I'm glad I helped him (indirectly) to make a choice. :)

 

> I agree with you and my Prince - the family is what matters, but in the same time, we all have our things that fulfills us and makes us content. He and my Ivy have martial arts, I have my diaries that I like to share. he is aware of it and that's why he didn't want me to quit. :)

 

> Many hugs my dear friend. Glad you shared your pearls of wisdom with me again. :)

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