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Depression


Evaloves4

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Fran’s and Stipe’s inability to marry in our country inspired me to search more about Christianity and marriage in our culture since 95% of Croats claims they are Roman Catholic Christians. I asked my Prince and Ivy for understanding and patience because it was very important to me. So, I took a Bible that belonged to Prince’s father and I started to read. No, not all Bible, but some important parts related to my research. I also checked some theological books online that speaks about homosexuality, bisexuality, polygamy, incest and marriages. I wasn’t surprised about conclusions, theses and explanations because I expected something like that. OK, I can understand that God is angry on such lifestyle (except polygamy in Old Testament) but I didn’t find ‘hate and hurt gays, lesbians, incestuous and bisexuals’ parole in New Testament. It was the practice of orthodox Jews in Old Testament. (My Prince explained to me what his father taught as theologian; that Christians should live according to New Testament since Old testament was fulfilled in Jesus Christ who gave a new law, but some groups and denominations still live in OT forgetting that Jesus brought a new law, the law of Love). God of the NT hates sinners’ practice, not sinners. Some ignorant and primitive people and so called Christians hate those groups. I never read that somebody attacked bestiality lovers. I’m not saying that they should be hated and attacked. I’m just saying that having sex with animals is more unnatural (for me) than having sex with same gender and yet, bestiality lovers are more accepted than above named people. God hated all those practices in Old Testament and he commanded to Israelites to punish them by stoning them to death. But, in the New Testament, Jesus gave opposite command: love your enemies and do well to them. Do not hate anyone but show your love. So, when Christian fundamentalists and traditional Christians hates and attack us; bisexuals, gays and polygamists, they actually ignore Jesus’s commandments and rather play Old Testament God for they like to hurt and torture. That is the work of evil one, a Satan, says Jesus in Gospel of John. I found very hypocritical that Christians in our country judge and hate homosexual, bisexuals and lesbians, but they are very fast to justify cheating their wives. I’m speaking in general sense. They publicly judge, mistreating and humiliate prostitutes, but they enjoy in their services on regular bases. That’s is what Apostol Paul also said to the Christian Jews in Corinth. I can’t say for sure but I believe that that some of those 4 guys, if not all, who attacked us have a girlfriend but in their absence they didn’t hesitate to cheat on them. If their gfs would do the same, they will beat them and call them whores. This is pure hypocrisy, male’s chauvinism and primitivism of the worst kind. I’m glad I did research on this subjects for I know now that extremely religious people and so called Christians have no tolerance at all toward others while in the same time that do exactly the same what they fight (preach) against. At the end of this paragraph I want to thank to my Prince who helped me a lot explaining to me some theological doctrines, movements and teachings that he learned from his father.

 

 

Speaking of my Prince, let me share with you our conversation we had couple of days ago when he felt in depression. One night, after sex and the shower, we went to bed. We couldn’t sleep because of him who sneaked out to the children’s room. After some time he came to the living room. He was sitting in the darkness in complete silence. My Ivy and I was worried about him and we joined him in the living room. I curled up in his lap and kissing him gently I asked him what is bugging him. He didn’t answer right away, but after couple of minutes he deeply sighed and said to my Ivy and me:

- Princess, Ivy, I am truly sorry if I disappointed you. I deeply apologize.

Me: NOOOOooooooOOOOO, my love, you didn’t disappoint me. I miss my romantic husband, but it is far from being disappointed.

Ivy deep kissed him and said:

- You never been better to us. You are exactly the man I want you to be. I’m sad because you are sad, but I still love you very much.

Prince (sighing deeply): I know I’m not the same person I used to be and I think you are not satisfied with me ….. In short time I lost so many dear persons to me ….. All this pain in my soul made me a man I am today ……. Princess, I’m sorry for stop being the man you wanted me to be …… Those loses made me afraid that I will lose you too …….. That’s why I have no joy of life and I’m silent too often and deeply worried ….. If I lose any of you, I will die …….. (Starting to sob)

My Ivy and I showered his face with kisses and “love yous”. I saw him sad before, but this is something different. He is not afraid of anyone, but he is afraid of Life that was rough on him and that might take us and our children from him. He is a great husband, excellent parent to our children and very loyal friend. My Ivy and I never thought of leaving him. On contrary, we want to spend the rest of our lives together. We, my Ivy and I pledged that we will fight with every crisis that will come in our lives and we’ll never give up from each other. After those and other encouraging words, we moved to our bedroom and enjoyed laying on his sporty chest. After some time of silence suddenly @SpyVsPie came to my mind. (I don’t know how and why). Remembering what he told me about Ivy’s stories and Stranger) I asked my Prince if he and Ivy will continue to play Skyrim and make new stories by the time. Both of them unanimously said: NO! Then I heard my Prince ‘speaking through Ivy’:

- Sorry Princess. We value our time too much and we don’t want to lose a single second on unimportant things …. As you can see, Prince doesn’t even log on LL because he knows if he start to visit it, his time with us, our children and family is lost. Right now we are still very busy. That’s why I support his decision …. When the time comes, we will join LL, but making Skyrim stories is history. We can't do both and playing Skyrim and making stories is extremely time consuming process which we can't afford.

She deep kissed me and him. I kissed my Prince and after taking our sleeping positions, we slept.

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I can feel with you. Especially in these times, I wonder where my time has gone.

Most of it goes into work right now and leaves, similar to you, little time for the joyful moments.

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It's too bad we won't get any more Stranger but I'm sure Prince and Ivy's time is better spent this way ?. Leave the Skyrim tales to us losers ?

 

Maybe I will "adopt" Stranger for a story or two again some day ?

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On 11/22/2020 at 3:30 AM, SpyVsPie said:

It's too bad we won't get any more Stranger but I'm sure Prince and Ivy's time is better spent this way ?. Leave the Skyrim tales to us losers ?

 

Maybe I will "adopt" Stranger for a story or two again some day ?

> Hey, hey, don't say that! Please! You are NOT LOOSER! ? You are brilliant story teller and maker and we love your work. :)

> MY Prince adores Cass and Stranger series you made. I'm sure that he'll watch it again when will find a time. :)

> As for you, many hugs and kisses :)

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On 11/11/2020 at 6:22 PM, worik said:

I can feel with you. Especially in these times, I wonder where my time has gone.

Most of it goes into work right now and leaves, similar to you, little time for the joyful moments.

> So true. I'm still stilling my time for LL when my loves aren't around. Just like now when I'm in my office. But have to go for my Prince doesn't like when I do that. :)

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